The update

First of all, Steve Jobs passed away today. Cupertino must be having a bad day; first the deadly shooting then Steve Jobs? Man. R.I.P. <3

Today was simply terrible when it comes to school. We had a Socratic seminar during Lit H today; I had a billion questions and ideas to say, but I just couldn't open my mouth because of my boyfriend Derrick. He's amazing at those type of things and his observations in literature are much more detailed than mine. Just think of his observations as elaborate puzzles and detail while mine has to do with an apple with a worm inside it. Then right when the seminar was about to end, Derrick asks in front of the whole class, "Jazmine, do you have any observations you would like to share?" and I'm just like, "Fuck, right when I lose my idea."

Well, afterwards I just felt like crying because I wasted all my awesome ideas and didn't say a thing. ./lowest grade in the whole seminar.

I'm not much of a talker.

After school totally made up for it though. A bunch of Hawaiian club members went over to my friend Shelden's house and my friend Oksana and I cooked up the leftover chicken and pineapple from Fall Fest. We seasoned it with just salt and pepper; no sauce required to eat OUR delicious chicken! It was beyond fun and hanging with such a large group of friends was something I haven't done in awhile; it was good for me.

Good day, hopefully we'll do it again. (:

POV

your look: What a whore, she played me.
their look: Awh, she and her boyfriend are so cute. She's such a sweetie.
your band of friends: I'm ashamed of her. What a bizatch.
my band of friends: I understand, he does seem sorta like a jerk when I think about it.

the unknown: Who and who? Who is that? She's sorta stupid and he's sorta flamboyant.


parents: He was a bad influence; we told you so.



my look: I ain't even mad; I'm in love with somebody else.

Lovelyness

【らっぷびと】リンゴ日和 [Rap-bit ver　ピッチ－2　テンポ上げ

I found this interesting since it sounds so different from the original.(Well, duh Jazmine, it's a rap.)

SO, I closed down my Facebook account since it was sorta pointless to have it. o_o I'm not a social person, so I'll just stick to my art central at Deviant and YouTube. Of course here too. I'll still be up on tumblr because it's the most wonderful thing in the entire world. I'll consider this to be one less distraction in the world. TA-DA.

Stuck

The Band Perry - If I Die Young (Arion vs Optimus Prime Dubstep Remix)

Joannie gives me sex on purpose. The moaning makes it perfect. LOL

Yesterday I hung out with Derrick at the theater. We watched Green Lantern and X-Men. I think they could have made Xavier have a more dramatic moment when his legs become paralyzed. o_o It was weird; he gets hit with a bullet blocked by Erik and then he can't feel his fucking legs. It should have been more dramatic! D:< But it was a really good movie. I found it funny when they would mention things about shaving Xavier's head and he'd be like, don't touch the hair when in the future when he's Professor X, he becomes bald. Haha.

Well, it was a good day. (:

I had a weird dream the night before. Oh, gosh. I feel like I'm scarred for life after that because it seemed so realistic. A lot of my dreams have become like real situations for me. I feel every touch, every nature's detail, and every...KISS? blaskdfjskldjfsf. Somethings I just don't wanna remember. -__- I need to sleep earlier so that this shit doesn't happen. It's weird as fuck.

More sex with Joannie.

I think I do.

Simple and Clean Piano

Relaxes me; sends shivers down my spine. I love it.


I miss times
but despise you
for everything
I hate you, I guess.

Ferrari f40

Robortom feat Au Revoir Simone - Paganini Rocks (Extended Club Version Vocal)

Another Joannie-shared song. Looove.

I'm glad that Derrick gives me requests of cars rather than anime characters; it's a real challenge to do realism, especially the supercars that he likes. x.x

Right now, since my tablet is dead and I need a new one fast, I'm doing his Ferrari f40 request traditionally. (even though I said I was gonna do it traditionally anyway..)

sexuality for popularity

So a few weeks ago, there was this guy at school wearing a huge cardboard sign saying "I'm bisexual, so what?" And all it did was piss me off.

I don't have anything against the sexuality part, I just think it shouldn't matter and he shouldn't be telling people to support his sexuality when there are A LOT of others who are bixsexual or whatever and they aren't getting the same attention this little whore is getting because they aren't wearing big fat fucking signs. Well, it's hard to explain what I'm trying to say right now, but it makes sense if I think it over. Haha.

AND if there are haters out there who have something against bisexuals, he's just setting himself up to be jumped. I think he should have kept it under the covers instead of trying to get attention from everybody.

Seriously, you shouldn't have to let the whole world know that you're whatever sexuality you are. If you can't help it you can't help it so just go on with your life and stop trying to get attention using the gender of people you're attracted to.

I know sooooo many people who use this as an excuse to get attention and it pisses me the fuck off.

Ugh, dumbasses. I DON'T CARE IF YOU'RE FUCKING STRAIGHT EITHER, YO.


RRRR *poot*

OH JOANNIE

She shared a shitload of godly music:

FAVORITES, MUCH? I have to admit that the first 15 seconds is sorta hard.

Iron Balls

Macho Man - Village People

I remember when this was the shit next to YMCA. 0:55 is like, the best thing ever.

My boyfriend had me take a picture of him while he's holding two Ironman toys we got from Japan town. They were in the shape of a ball and had IronMan's face on it, so he placed it where else? ._. He's silly.

Had Derrick over for the day and we played Smash Bros. Melee, ate chicken and pork adobo made by my mom, and just relaxed; taking a break from all the travel and such.

Currently practicing my animating skills.
I'll be off.

Also, I'm reading The Lathe of Heaven for Summer homework. I actually like this assigned book. Lovely.

I realized how cheesy this shit is. At least it sounds good? ahah.

Another "I wish"

Sun of a Gun - Oh Land

I adore this song and the odd meaning. New tumblr page song.

I wish that my acne would go away because it is such a pain in the fucking ass to get rid of no matter how many times I clean and no matter what I use to clean it.

I wish that San Francisco weather would correspond to the seasons like normal places. Like HOT with HOT SUMMER and COLD with COLD WINTER.
skjdflajslfkjsldfjsdlkf FUCK.

I also with that my boobs would grow. I agree with the retarded people that have ever fought with me and brought that up for no apparent reason. o_o I have a flat chest. WELLWELL at least I have somebody who loves me. Now what, HOBOS. Uhm, but yeah I want bigger boobs. I've resorted to Google-ing ways on how to make them bigger. " QQ "

I wish that I could go out more.

I wish that my mom would let me live in my grandma's apartment so I could have more privacy with...people. (insert creepy nerd laugh)

I wish (even though I wanna live alone) that I can have keys to my own home!

I wish my bangs would stay perfect no matter what; I hate doing the stupid Justin Bieber hair flip every five seconds, but I love my bangs.

I wish my hair wouldn't curl inwards on hot days.

I wish I could go out and exercise without being told that it's too dangerous outside and I might get kidnapped and raped.

HELLO, I CAN'T GET RAPED WHEN I'M UGLY AND FLAT AS FUCK. THANK YOU VERY MUCH.


e.e I need to get out more.

BENDER.

stupidmotherfuckingpenisshit

It's too warm today. I'd rather it be tropical heat like Hawaii. I miss Waikiki so badly.

Touched

Ano Hana is one of the most touching anime/story line I have ever seen in my life. Well, it isn't much of a surprise since I believe that it is the same creator of ToraDora, which was also a tear-jerker for me. I swear that this is the best thing I have ever experienced; crying every single minute of the series. It's on-going so I'll be crying over this story for quite some time. I guess I cried because the characters started out so close and when I realized that the cutest little girl was the one who had passed away, I burst into tears.



I blame my friend David for this since he was like, "OMGOMGOMG you gotta watch it. Anne watches it too! She even made a fanart!" So I was just all 'what-the-hey' and went to Google it on an Anime site. I had no clue how touching it was; I started to cry during the first episode! My boyfriend is currently watching it with me as well, but I don't know if he cried or not while watching it. Apparently he's a tough cookie while I'm a big fat crybaby.

Soooo,
I livestreamed yesterday while doing lineart for my friend Jenny's drawing request. I managed to stream the whole lineart and color the bases for the female figure. Of course, I played an hour mix of 4x4=12 (Deadmau5) twice off Youtube at the same time. It was actually quite relaxing for me even though it was club music. ; o ;

Today I played Maple for a little in Windia. I still play my bishop from time to time so I can get items for my other characters since a lot of the things I need are from higher leveled monsters. Er, maple weapons end today! D:

I also started to clean up my room more. The walls will still look messy since it's a piece of artwork, but my dad moved out a shit load of boxes so that I'd have room for a papasan or something. I'd like to get a small one so I can curl up and read for once or play my game systems in comfort.

I want to start doing game recording forreal.

MUST
FINISH
REQUESTS
AND
PVs!

BITS AND BITS

I'm finally going to try playing Bit.Trip Runner since I saw iHasCupquake post a gameplay on it. Just 3 minutes left until my download is over. ; u ; I'm thinking about doing some gameplay videos soon since I have the materials. I know I like doing a lot of new things, but hey it's fun. I'd do gameplay on minecraft but a lot of people do that now..So I'm not too sure about that. I should really start buying more Xbox games like Portals 2, which my sister and I have been meaning to buy so we can co-op. Well, I have Terraria, Minecraft, Maplestory, and a lot of Nintendo games. I don't have too many Xbox games since a lot of the ones I really want are super duper expensive. >_<

Well, I'm currently sketching up some of my summer requests and procrastinating on my Summer homework.

Errghh.. My tattoo is flaking and shit. YUCK.

Back and Sorta Black

Turn around Part 2 - Flo Rida ft Pitbull

I really did go look for this song after watching Hangover II. 5,4,3,2,1

Here's today's TMI:
I wore a striped bikini while at Waimea beach last week; I got a weird tan that made a stripe on my butt tan then the next white then the next tan and etc. I thought it was sorta funny and at the same time: "Oh, fuck I have a big square tan on my side. (referring to the big square buckle on the side of the suit.)"

Speaking of Waimea beach, HOLY FUCK I jumped off the freaking 20(lol idk) foot tall rock into the ocean. It was sorta a bad idea since I'm both afraid of the ocean AND heights. I followed my "cousin", Lance up the rock since he said we could jump together and when I reached the top my legs were shaking uncontrollably. Oh, goodness. No turning back unless I wanted to risk slipping off and cracking my skull on the back of the rock. So, it was the moment; clenched onto my cousin's arm and jumped down with him. It's funny, right when I jumped into the air somebody behind me made a comment like, "It's like committing suicide." and I'm already falling and freaking the fuck out. Well, landed into the ocean and I was like: HOLY FUCK I'M FUCKING ALIVE.

I can't tell if it was scary or amazing. It was probably both, but I'm able to say I even did it. (Scarred for life.)

---x

Well, after many beach and shrimp truck hopping in Waikiki with my "cousins", we had a BBQ back at the beach house my family and I stayed at. Apparently the rumor is Ryan Seacrest or whatever his name is had stayed at that beach house to get away from the shitload of fans. I don't know for sure but the owner said that. It was a hostile we stayed at so a bunch of college graduates were there and drank all night. I remember during the BBQ that some dude came up to our porch and asked for salt for their tequila shots.

ANYWAY, the BBQ was made completely out of scratch by my mom. She bought some spices and cooked up some delicious chicken wings, apple sausages, Portuguese sausages, and a huge salad. My mom is amazing. (: We invited my cousins who had been visiting Hawaii at the same time as us to the BBQ and my "cousins" (or my parent's college friends + their children) as well. It was fun.


---x

I like how people in Hawaii just call close friends cousins. I feel so at home when I hear that. My cousin Sophi is so adorable! I find it super funny that she called my Uncle "Uncle Buddha" since the first day she met him he was wearing a shirt that says Buddha. (as in the company) It was hilarious. He would tease her about her purple belt in Karate saying that she was taught by Barney since it was that color. Haha. Those two would always argue during the trip and she's only nine and he's like 30 something.

---x

I got a real tattoo. The people who would tell me that it'd hurt lied! It only felt like a light knife carving into my back, I mean sure it'd hurt a bit at some turns but I guess the lineart is the worst part. Coloring and shading was like a massage; I almost fell asleep at that part. I guess this means I'll be going back for another. Heh. Eh, the aftermath hurts a bit more than the tattoo itself like the peeling, the position you have to sleep, and the scabs forming. Especially since I got it on my back it's a bit more difficult to dodge.

---x


THE END. I forgot everything else. Haha. Maybe in a sequel thingy-ma-jiggy.

NO MORE!

/that won't kill me, it'll only make me stronger
Kanye West - Stronger

Heard this in Hangover II even though it's old as fuck. It just got me into it again.

This week has been amazing; lots of movies, warm hugs and kisses, food, and secret stuff.

Fast Five was made me jump a lot since it was so exciting. x.x I also jumped when Derrick would scream, "OH, MY GOD! THAT'S A (insert car name, company, and model here)! " He's so adorable when he gets into his geeky mode. I find it simply adorable. Dawyn Johnson and that other dude from the movie remind me of each other so they only thing I could think of was Street Fighter when you play the same character but the colors are changed up so you can tell who's who. o.o

Thor was surprisingly short. I was sort of sleepy at the beginning of the movie since I stayed up late the night before, but I got it after awhile. Natalie Portman fell in love at first sight. Aha. I'm excited to see 'The Avengers' since it is said at the end of Thor that he'll be appearing again with most likely IronMan and Captain America. Of course the other Marvel characters will be there since that's exactly what makes The Avengers who they are. (: Sighh. I'm getting a little nerdy. aha.

Hangover II....It's so hard to tell if Thai women are men or women. LOL. I saw Leslie's penis (Chow) which was mistaken for a mushroom and a transvestite's penis.. and a few tits at the end credits...MY BRAIN HAS MELTED. They played Deadmau5! Sofi Needs a Ladder- Deadmau5


Well, Derrick and I went to In 'n Out and Lou's all in one day. I nearly popped from all that delicious food!

Thank you for spending the day with me, Derrick. (:

When you ask

if I have ever watched porn, the answer will overlap your question with a big smile and girly hair flip.

Suddenly My Little Ponies is the best thing ever since they reanimated it and made it the cutest thing on the face of the mother fucking planet.

Super Smash Bros. Brawl Music Extended - Gourmet Race

Love my pink blob. I'm in the mood for some monster inhaling.

A "Fiary"

Kirby's Epic Yarn Music Extended - Green Greens

CUTEST VERSION I'VE EVER HEARD. I must buy this game just to hear this song.

Derrick can't spell 'fairy', but that's okay because we ARE the magical and legendary Taco Fairies. That's right people, WE are the Taco Fairies. I bet you're all surprised since we're just two little Asian midgets that like to eat a lot and talk about taking dumps. Well, Joannie if you're reading this, be very surprised because we were the ones who placed that wonderful soft taco in your locker with the help of the tall Locker Fairy, who happened to steal two of your other tacos and ate them as payment. LOL. Sorry, we couldn't stop him, "OMG, they're all tacos?!" *snatches then closes your locker*

Today was fun, but Dairy ate too many tacos and loads of food the day before, so he took a massive dump. Yay. I'm just jealous that the tacos didn't give me a dump; it isn't fair!

My own personal facebook quote:
"You know when your mom loves you when she pelts you with boxes of liquid eyeliner then runs away."

Yes, while working on another digital art piece, my mother came home with little boxes of liquid eye liner. Again, you are correct; she stands at the door, silent. Stares hard at me and says, "Hello."

I then knew right away that she was about to do what I thought she was gonna do. I started to panic. "Don't even," I said while putting my hands up to protect myself from the sharp plastic boxes. "I'm not ready! I can't catch! Just don't throw them!"

One at a time, the transparent boxes flew up into the air; one missed and landed beneath my chair while another landed behind my bottom. "HA, you missed me."

WHAP.

Injured, I fell to the ground wailing in pain! I rolled around and wailed.
(I should join Drama because I'm that cool.)

Mom ran away giggling like a little girl. A few seconds later I hear my sister scream "Ouch, mom! WHAT WAS THAT?!" Yeah, I love my Mommy.



Derrick, I am the Golden Swan. LOL.
"OH, NOOOO! OUR SCHOOL IS GONNA LOSE BECAUSE LINCOLN HAS THE GOLDEN SWAN!"
- Uncle Tony in a little swimmer girl's voice.

Yeah, love my uncle too. XDD

Oh, that's cool!

So earlier Derrick and I were commenting on my friend's photo on how her cute home-made skirt was. Uh, well I was anyway. Derrick just said he wanted a skirt for himself. When she said that she would, this was his reaction on AIM:

Derrick 7:54 pm
i get a skirt <3

Yes, a skirt. I would make him wear it every single day. Oh, if he can't have a vagina he'll have to have a skirt, thank you very much!

<3

I Know

I had a whole story to write for you readers out there, but I ended up forgetting after installing Windows 7 for a whole day. Well, here is Rainbow Dash's sex appeal being pumped up by Double Rainbow Autotune.



I'll try and write tomorrow, guys. There's a whole load of things I would like to talk about. C:

New

So tomorrow I believe we're getting our track jackets for swim team! (Yes, TRACK jackets for SWIM team.) Anyway, I'm excited to get a jacket; how lame am I? Well, tomorrow we're also taking our group picture and yearbook photo of the team. :^D I must try and fit myself into a size 26 suit because my coach returned the suit that I wanted to trade in for mine. ; ~ ; I'm gonna die!

Today we did Gym olympics and I had to run 200 (total). It was a 4x4 relay so it didn't really matter; I got good runs but my team wold always lose because they wouldn't do running passes of the baton. SIIGHHHH. Frustration. lmfao. Kidding, friends.

A good exercise day! Tomorrow is suppose to be our last day of testing then we get off at 12 on Thursday. (: I better warn my dad that I'm gonna play shooting games with Dairy that day at my house.

Well, I'm gonna work on my Tama-tan parody PV. C: (As in procrastinating on my poetry booklet for Friday.) Oh, my mom says that she might ask her friend to give us Portals 2 for cheaper! I'm so excited for that game you have no clue. I'm gonna go nuts with it though..

Byeee.

Bittersweet

STAR testing starts tomorrow.

This weekend was filled with relief, too much #Koge-Donbo, and Minecraft rage.

My ass is gonna be chopped to pieces tomorrow during swim practice and cheese biscuits.


I'm not making sense.. #POPTART PUSSY!

Dork love

Derrick gave my mom her favorite food for her birthday. She was beyond happy since she was hungry today and was actually thinking of asking us to get something for her. But before she could even ask us, Derrick read her mind and bought it for her.

It's funny because I told him to say:
"Happy Birthday, Mrs.Zabala. I bought you chicken and corn. I love you."

but he said it'd be embarrassing so this is what really happened:

Derrick: "Happy birthday, Mr. Zabala, here's some chicken and corn."
Mom: "OH, CHICKEN AND CORN!! I love you, son."
Me: "SAY THE LAST PART! *partly strangling Derrick*"
Derrick: *in crying voice* "I love you too T.T"

Blank

Thank you, Betsy for telling me you'd be there for me ! (: I appreciate it a lot.

Love The Way You Lie (PART 2)ft.Eminem - Rhianna

I found this song in a PV by #oshaikeuchi on youtube. :] But DERRICK showed me the full version.

I don't know what exactly happened to me today. There were so many mixed feelings and heartaches even though there wasn't anything wrong. I left after 5th period and laid in the park alone.. I didn't know what to do. I blacked out for a bit; I'm glad nobody passed by to jack my stuff or kidnap me.. I shouldn't do that again just to be safe. Afterwards I went back to school and stood at the gate watching Derrick at track practice. I think he was surprised that I even came back to school after being so sad. We waited in the deserted stairwell together and just waited till I broke again.

Oh, how I hate you people from the past; leaving such deep scars on my brain and torturing me till I'm nothing. I HATE YOU. The people that support me now make me feel good, they don't make me think I'm just shit to them. And if they do, well they're good at faking unlike you guys.

He said he wouldn't hate me if I ever wanted to break it off and that he'd still be my best friend like he is today. That's when I changed my decision and called him a "stupid poo face" for not watching over me at the park. I'm glad I didn't make a stupid mistake that would've haunted me for life. Being sensitive sucks; nobody will understand you and you'll end up becoming something you won't like at all.

"Hello,

my name is Jazmine square 9x circle 7x."

(8-bit)Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger by DaftPunk

What the fuck is this brilliant shit?!



http://jam4art.org/

San Fran should join since we're so artistic. Come on, even the New Yorkers are short on people. Let's make it seem like were cooler. haha.

Quote:
(after talking about Derrick's fear of Angelina Jolie's lips...)
*Ben and Adrian are pushing each other or something*
Derrick: "WATCH OUT, ADRIAN! BEN IS GOING TO RAID YOUR TOMB!"

I adore this boy. <3

What do I see?

"nothing at all."
Hollywood Undead - Hear Me Now

New album and I'm in LOVE with this song. Thanks Derrick for alerting me about the new album even though I saw it at HT and forgot to mention it. T.T I love how they added a lyric from Gangster's Paradise by 2pac (even if it was only a second.).

Today was a good day full of exercise and food. I've gained a two pac since practice started. :D I'm so happy that I'm in shape again. Minecraft is wearing my health down so I gotta get out and do more work. Sunday's my dad plans to run with me a few times around the house so we can stay fit together and the rest of the week I'll be working at swim practice. I also managed to run 2 times around the entire school in 14 minutes with June today. We beasted most of the class so I was pretty excited! :D Lately my run times have been improving by a whole lot. Normal days: 20 minutes This week: 5 minutes. I know, major slacking before but now I'm fit! YES. I can even hold my body up doing arm holds and push-ups.

Along with all this practice, I've been eating two dinners every night. Jeez, I feel so fat but my tummy is still the same as usual. Hehe. My legs have gotten harder and muscular along with my arms because of all this exercise... Oh, well. I'll gain my "womanly" fat someday.

Practicing my uke again since I've been itching to finally learn "Pokemon Center Theme". I love the sound; it's adorable yet very complex. T-T I hate shifting on guitars and my uke. I think 'uke' sounds like 'ook' and when I think of 'uke' I have an image of a monkey scratching it's armpits and saying 'ook'. Whatever, monkeys are cute; especially Dairy, my giant brown monkey plush that Derrick got for me on Valentine's day. <3 I suck at gifts so I ended up carrying this hugeass monkey around while Derrick held a midget Domo doll. I feel so bad.. :[ I should have done more for him. I love you Derrick and sorry for being such a lame and boring girlfriend. ; ~ ;

I gotta stop procrastinating.
Physics attempt starts:





NOW.

I NEEDED TO!

A quote by a swimmer on Lincoln's team:

"So, on the back of my jacket can I get 11 so I can be number 1 twice?"


LOLOLOL. Brilliant!

What

Jason 8:57 pm
LOLOLOLOLOL
you guys seriously
look like some
middle schol
school*
couple
not even going to lie
HAHAH

Thanks.

Swim practice was amazingly great today. I felt good about myself; doing 20 sets of 100 meters. :^D I wasn't even super tired when we finished. YESSSS.

Derrick bought me a Deadmau5 shirt today from Hot Topic. T.T Oh, my gosh I'm in love but at the same time guilty that he bought such an expensive piece of clothing for me.... I wanna repay him. <3

Oh, I got to meet Jason "FORREAL" today. I mean, I know him and all but we've only talked on AIM and webcammed since Derrick introduced me to him. Haha. Well, it was cool meeting him even though I became a cockblock at Stonestown. Darn manly love.

Homework time. (: Sourpatch watermelon even though my coach said not to eat candy. :D

Realized.

That the last post I did wasn't actually my 200th, it was my 201st. I fail so bad.

The Arka Teks - Partyology

PETER CHAO AND THE UCLA BITCH SENT ME.

Anyway, today I realized that I have this weird fake Chinese accent when I talk super seriously or fast. I don't know why, but it just happens. *F3, bro* Speaking of accents, Vivian was talking about how she had a ghetto accent in middle school. All of us just stared at her and laughed because she's this petite little Asian girl. Then she says something "ghetto" sounding and I start laughing harder. Before swim practice we mooched off of Eric #2's snack of fries. Eric #1, Derrick, Kelsey and I all pounced on the small white bag filled with Teaway snacks. Eric #2 needed to go somewhere really quick and left his snack with us, but of course, he comes back to a bunch of crumbs. Haha. Kristi just laughed and asked why he even left his food with us.

Practice starts and we all miss Wendy because she wasn't there to be dunked by us. (It's her birthday today.) She skipped out and all I could think about was pushing her into the pool then diving in and giving her mouth-to-mouth. The second part wasn't all that true, but I love Wendy! She's so adorable.

It was beyond windy today and I ACTUALLY wore clothes. It was still cold. Before swim practice I went to watch Derrick at track practice. I sat on the floor of the track with Jaylyn and all of a sudden a huge gust of wind comes towards us. Sand from the pit flew over to us and a bunch of little pieces of track as well. We were attacked by the wind but we both got up quickly and laughed at how much it actually hurt.

OH, GOSH. The wind just blew past and made a whistling sound. "QQ" as Joannie would say. Well, au revoir mon amis.

200

Already? It seems like I just started this blog over again yet I'm up to 200 posts.

Anyway, swim practice was rather interesting today.
An example would be where our coach brought out a ruler and one of my swim mates went up to him and when he wasn't looking, he bent over as if he were going to receive a spanking.

Ah, I want a "track jacket" or a "warm-up jacket". Whatever it is, I want it more than a crewneck for the team. I mean seriously guys, if we're at a meet would you rather have a jacket that looks cool or a sweatshirt that'll get wet easily. Oh, and we live in SF, meaning it's crazy-ass weather! I'd rather have a jacket than a sweatshirt that suffocates you at the neck. Sorry, but that's my choice.

HOMEWORK. Bye.

UGH NIGGY! TODAY.

Physics was somewhat fun even though I wasn't listening one bit. Alan and I were talking about how our teacher's hand motions looked like he was wacking somebody off instead of trying to simulate a wave. A few moments of that class were so happy until the weird change of mood.

For some reason, I think I pissed off Ben by saying something and he totally acted like a jerk. Ugh, it didn't help when he started to talk exactly like Cary, my old "best friend". Shit, how I wanted to punch Ben in the face and strangle him. The next period and I was feeling worse; holding in tears while ignoring every person trying to cheer me up and abusing Derrick whenever he asked if I was alright. Everybody asked if I was alright due to my lack of "smiles and cheerful talk". Even the teacher asked, so I forced and smile as she assumed I was tired from the break.

I become the worst person ever when I'm mad or trying to hold in feelings. If Derrick got his hand close to me to comfort him, I'd slap it away; people would stare at us while I'd go back to my motionless position. When Ben took out his lighter and put it near me, I punched his hand away in attempt to knock it from his hand; he was silent while Alan would comment on how I was feeling.

I can't even remember if I was ever like this before. I even do it to my parents now..it's terrible that I'm so disrespectful and I know it myself.

Finally, tears falling down as I hit the first step down the stairs of the first floor. I was only welcomed to arms of a loving boy.


MUSIC INSPIRATION OF THE DAY

Machinima videos always cheer me up; the people that do videogame commentary and make music for them are simply hilarious.

You Don't Want to Be Alone

What You Know - Two Door Cinema Club

I'll always love the sound and lyrics.

Spring break is over and it's time to see missed faces. Well, SOME missed faces; that one other I'd prefer to go fall in a ditch.

Anyway, Derrick and I worked on our Modern World project and got a lot done in one day. (: I didn't have any cotton balls to tear up and use as clouds so I was "ghetto" and used ripped up tissue. At least it still looks like clouds...somewhat.

I somehow improved on my coloring by not touching my tablet in months and finished about 20% of a speedpaint that is over a year late. I really want to get it out on YouTube soon so I can start posting music videos; I haven't really put my ideas in action yet, but I have many ideas that don't include Japanese music. That's right, I'm planning on making a music video with anime drawings but American music. WOAH, NOW.

That's all for now. I'll write again later if I remember. Thanks for reading.

MUSICAL INSPIRATION OF THE DAY

Travis Garland

I love this song because I can relate it to my own love life. You guys have no idea about the assholes from waaaay back then. Aha, older men suck.

THEME SONG WAS TURNED "GODLY"?

That's right! I've discovered my 'theme song' Float On by Modest Mouse was used as an instrumental in the song The Show Goes On by Lupe Fiasco. I wasn't a big fan of Fiasco before, but now, my gosh I'm in love. Haha.
The Show Goes On - Lupe Fiasco

Thank you Dani for finding this and showing me.


MUSICAL INTERESTS OF THE DAY

Andrew Huang

First pink fluffy unicorns now gravy and toast?! I think a big fat YES? I think I laughed the most when he says, "WHOA NOW..WOAH....NOW."

Frozen fish

I'm a frozen fish! Haaaa see what I did there?

Well, San Fran is having mighty winds and rain storms and it's freezing us all over. Grr, I'd love some Summer love from the sun right now.

Alright, I haven't been giving one single damn abut school or people lately since I'm brain dead. I'm literally failing Physics; MY FIRST F EVER ON A REPORT CARD. I'm so proud of myself.. Sarcasm is quite welcomed. Oh, and it's been my first time being told I can't do something because of my grades. Well, sucks because I've basically missed two whole meets and there's only one left till champs.

I managed to get a tighter suit today since my old one was basically like carrying my own weight in the pool all the time. Uh, and I ate Korean food today. Yeah.

It's 4am and I'm tired and brain dead. Hamachiiiiiii---I HATE YOU STUPID HAMACHI AND JAVA JCE FILES! Y U NO HACK LIKE YOU'RE SUPPOSE TO?! (Computer nerd talk.)

MUSICAL INSPIRATIONS FOR THIS WEEK
Nick Pitera has the most amazing male and FEMALE vocals on the face of the planet! He is the definition of multi-talented! (Supports Pixar animations too)


Amazing a capella by Mike Tompkins. :D Makes me actually like this song.

Best day of 2011

Yesterday I spent the entire day at my house with Derrick. We played Halo, fooled around, and such. I obviously beat him at Halo, but he wouldn't stop until he got me to cry. (Before my mom left she requested that he was to make me cry while playing Halo.) After that we went down to the pool where I swam for practice. It was Lowell vs. Lincoln and honestly, we did pretty good since it was most of the team's first vs. Lowell meet. I felt like the organization wasn't too great since the meet was about to start and NONE of us knew who was in the first JV girl heat. At the last second we managed to get our relay team together. They totally beasted our school but it doesn't matter; I totally improved my times by at least 13 seconds.


This is the most creative hint of Gaga from Japan ever. o.o

my baby

I swear, if it turns out that Selena Gomez really was punched in the face by a Justin Bieber fan, I will find them and rip their head off and force-flush it down my toilet full of my shit.

That is all. Thank you and goodnight.

One Awkward Hell

Mozart l'Opéra Rock - Le Bien Qui Fait Mal(The Good Thing That Hurts)

So, I translated this song; the French are so deep it's not funny.

My two friend's broke up.
It's really weird because it was the girl's birthday and they broke up the day before. I can't really say the details since I totally know two different pieces of information from the two parties. If you put them together you'd understand what I am thinking.

I'm so tired and very busy munching on Fizzy Cola by Haribo. My second favorite candy next to Sourpatch Watermelon.

au revoir.

Simple things

Flobot - Handlebars

I honestly love the concept of this song. I found it inspiring and poetic(even though all songs are suppose to be poetic.). Just the fact that the singers start out with a simple thing like being able to ride a bike without handlebars then the more complicated things they're capable of doing as a human being; how a person like them can create violence and death of others. It's hard to explain, but it really hit me deep.

Another thing that moved me was a post quoting Lady Gaga:
"Some people have to choose between their career and love. Well, one day your career won't wake up in the same bed as you and say it doesn't love you anymore."

Or something close to that, but it really moved me.


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Lincoln vs. Balboa:
Way to go Bal, you didn't have any Varsity girls...
0-64. LOL.

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English honors essay was today and it was so freakin' easy. o_o Like, seriously. AND the passage was really nice and poetic sounding. I actually enjoyed this essay and found it easy to write about. Hopefully I'm not going to be on the waiting list next year because I feel like I did pretty well on it.

Dinner and homework time. Au revoir.

Snow?

I hope it snows tomorrow just for Derrick. This young man has never seen snow and I demand the sky to make it snow just for him!








goodnight and thank you very much.

reasons

I guess music and artwork will always be my passion because of Hayao Miyazaki. Everything about the music in his animations and the way he tells fairy tales just makes me feel proud. I don't exactly know why, but it's just one of the best feelings you can ever have.


Howl's Moving Castle & Spirited Away were my favorite.

physics + deadmau5

= getting no work done.

I can't concentrate with Deadmau5 playing in the background, but I really love the sound and can't stop listening. Would this be considered a problem?

Well, I did dry-land practice today for swim team. I was actually surprised at how long I really lasted in running compared to gym runs. We ran all the way up to "Turtle Hill", walked down the tiled stairs then did 3 flights down and up again. Afterward, we did a short sprint up a hill while in the middle of the road; I got a terrible cramp from it, but whatever it was worth it.

Tomorrow is a short day meaning FOOD. Lots and lots of it. Well, not a whole load of food since I have practice tomorrow as well. I have to be able to make it through practice since there's an actual meet Friday. Oh, goshhhh it came so fast! I swear we just had AAA (which I did not attend due to back problems.) and a week later another?! I'm seriously nervous since I haven't exactly been shaping up like the rest of the team. I just hope our coach doesn't give me something like a 500 yard IM or whatever. I'll die of embarrassment! Anyway, back to Thursday. So, tomorrow I only have Computer Arts, Gym, and Physics. At least the day ends with someone good. (:

Off to work on Physics. Au revoir.

Hate watching

I like doing things more than watching and listening. Today during swim practice, I was able to make it through 3/4 of the whole thing, but then after awhile my back started raging with pain again. Seriously, I've been resting up for two weeks, gotten a massage, a weird-ass massage with electrostatic shocking into my muscles, and just sleeping more. But still, apparently none of it worked and I'm back to where I started; aching back all day and night.

While sitting out that one last part of practice, I sat on the side, watching everybody else dive into the pool and piercing into the still water. How jealous was I, staring at the people lining up to dive off blocks. I was jealous that everybody there was just fine, no problems. It's stupid that I have to watch those people with no problems while I sit there, looking as dumb as ever saying: "Oh...my back hurts again."

I envy all of those people. I can't breath, I can't swim, I can't walk, I can barely sleep. This is stupid.

I have to make it to the next meet Friday because apparently, I might get cut if I miss two meets in a row. Bullshit. I guess I'll have to try as hard as I can without ruining my back completely.

Well, time to do Physics.
Hate it. Au revoir.

Very cold

Today went by fast and I felt a bit more relaxed than usual. My back still hurt today so I ended up not dressing for P.E.. My gym teacher doesn't mind since I normally dress and participate during class, so he gave me a decent grade on my pacers and didn't count me as a suit cut.





















This was a kids' movie! What in the world was this doing in it?! I haven't seen it though; this was used as a GIF on Tumblr.


Speaking of Tumblr, I discovered how to use endless scroll on my dashboard, so instead of pressing the left, right, up, AND down keys, I only have to use the down and up keys for my viewing pleasure. I know that sounds sort of wrong and all, but at least it's only pictures of men eating out their girlfriends instead of infected penises (cough, 4chan.org slamming.). Anyway, I was able to reblog only a million pictures of Justin Bieber to make Derrick jealous; it worked and he got so cute and "chubby-faced". SO CUTE.

My love, Derrick is way cuter. Especially with his cute and pink cheeks. (:

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Alright, so after school, Derrick took me to this place on Geary: My Tofu House. The food there is so good. I felt really bad that the prices were so high so I insisted on chipping in with Derrick, but of course the little butt face wouldn't let me. I told him I wouldn't let him pay the lady until he accepted my 10 bucks. The soft tofu soup was so good, but wasn't as spicy as I expected for a "medium" spiced soup. I guess next time I'll try the "spicy" one. (: Hopefully I can handle it. Oh, and the rice dish was delicious, especially with the pieces of octopus steamed into it. Man, I'm making myself hungry again.

Well, nothing much else to say?
We took the limited bus back to school and went separate ways home.

Sorry, I can't afford a Ferrari

YouTube is down and I'm attempting to dance to this with back pains.

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Today was rather boring. All I did was excite for the end of the day only to go home to a boring load of homework. School is such a drag and I've been completely out of it for months now. My back is completely out so I'm out of swim practice for a bit. This sucks ugly, crooked, deformed penis.

Well, I'm doing make-up work for English class; poetry suddenly isn't so much fun when I have to do it by force.

Au revoir, loves. I'm off to do poetry analysis.

The truth?!

Honestly, I was only there to care for you. For some reason, I only wanted you to be happy but all I got was a slap in the face. Everyday, a little joke or tiny insult with a meaningless "just kidding" blown at me. Ha! I was a friend to you?! Why would you treat a FRIEND like that? But of course, it's my fault because I went back to YOU because I cared. I made a silly mistake because all the day ended with was the same thing, tears and depression. You made it worse than ever and I never said anything. Why did I even think you were a friend? Even my mom told me you were a bad influence on me and all I'd say to her is, "NO, HE'S MY FRIEND. I won't let what YOU say get in the way of that." But still, the same thing happened every night; burning eyes, "what's the matter, baby?", lame excuses for my tears.

Only to go back to the problem. I was probably a friend to you, but to me, you were the source of all my sadness. But for some reason, something about you just made me want to care for you and make sure you were happy.

This is why I am so upset.
I'm mad at myself for this,
not because I miss you.

I made a mistake that I just realized now.


During the day, I was happy.
When you looked away, I was dying.
Not like you cared anyway, I was just a punching bag for your feelings towards others. I was the one you said hurtful things about others to as well.

I was just a nobody that made you feel good inside.
You created a hollow shell and destroyed it every single day you spent with it.
I'd hold your arm, clenching it and waiting for you to accept me instead of insult me, but no. Nothing. When we were with your other friends, you'd treat me like garbage. Only a piece of meat to keep you company if they ignore you. Right?

And those phone calls late at night..
I meant what I said every time you hung up, but I didn't know why I'd say it.
"They aren't just words you know, Jazmine." but I couldn't help myself.
I only wanted to go back to you.
I wanted your happiness.
I sacrificed my own for yours and I now realize that it was all a mistake.
And you were just a person I cared about.

You were wrong, I wasn't faking our friendship, I just hid my tears away from everybody.

But you were right in some ways, it is best if we weren't friends. Honestly, I haven't been happier with the people around me because they all know now. They all know who I am and that's a whole different person whom you'd never want to be friends with EVER again.

That's why I chose someone else.

Valentines Day

[17:40] Me: (:
[17:41] Boy I have a crush on: hi =]
[17:43] Me: hi!!!
[17:43] Me: >___< im nervous cuz i have a huge crush on you
[17:43] Me: and and and
[17:43] Me: and
[17:43] Me: and and and
[17:43] Me: and
[17:43] Me: and and
[17:43] Me: andandandnddndndndndndndnd
[17:43] Boy I have a crush on: and? =]
[17:43] Me: uhmmm uhmm
[17:43] Me: i just wanna kiss you
[17:43] Me: >3<
[17:43] Me: ehe
[17:44] Boy I have a crush on: ill kiss you tmrw cuz i got a huge ass crush on you too <3

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Today made me smile and giggle a lot. Kisses. I love him.