I like doing things more than watching and listening. Today during swim practice, I was able to make it through 3/4 of the whole thing, but then after awhile my back started raging with pain again. Seriously, I've been resting up for two weeks, gotten a massage, a weird-ass massage with electrostatic shocking into my muscles, and just sleeping more. But still, apparently none of it worked and I'm back to where I started; aching back all day and night.
While sitting out that one last part of practice, I sat on the side, watching everybody else dive into the pool and piercing into the still water. How jealous was I, staring at the people lining up to dive off blocks. I was jealous that everybody there was just fine, no problems. It's stupid that I have to watch those people with no problems while I sit there, looking as dumb as ever saying: "Oh...my back hurts again."
I envy all of those people. I can't breath, I can't swim, I can't walk, I can barely sleep. This is stupid.
I have to make it to the next meet Friday because apparently, I might get cut if I miss two meets in a row. Bullshit. I guess I'll have to try as hard as I can without ruining my back completely.
Well, time to do Physics.
Hate it. Au revoir.
