Thank you, Betsy for telling me you'd be there for me ! (: I appreciate it a lot.
Love The Way You Lie (PART 2)ft.Eminem - Rhianna
I found this song in a PV by #oshaikeuchi on youtube. :] But DERRICK showed me the full version.
I don't know what exactly happened to me today. There were so many mixed feelings and heartaches even though there wasn't anything wrong. I left after 5th period and laid in the park alone.. I didn't know what to do. I blacked out for a bit; I'm glad nobody passed by to jack my stuff or kidnap me.. I shouldn't do that again just to be safe. Afterwards I went back to school and stood at the gate watching Derrick at track practice. I think he was surprised that I even came back to school after being so sad. We waited in the deserted stairwell together and just waited till I broke again.
Oh, how I hate you people from the past; leaving such deep scars on my brain and torturing me till I'm nothing. I HATE YOU. The people that support me now make me feel good, they don't make me think I'm just shit to them. And if they do, well they're good at faking unlike you guys.
He said he wouldn't hate me if I ever wanted to break it off and that he'd still be my best friend like he is today. That's when I changed my decision and called him a "stupid poo face" for not watching over me at the park. I'm glad I didn't make a stupid mistake that would've haunted me for life. Being sensitive sucks; nobody will understand you and you'll end up becoming something you won't like at all.
