31 ; [Strawberry Joy]

I accidentally left my computer on this morning and the order form for a skateboard I want was still on there. My mom came in in the morning and saw it and this was her reaction : "IT'S ON SALE! OVER TWENTY DOLLARS OFF!" I could tell she was convinced enough to get my new board. I'm so good at this. The one to the side is the one I want. Aha. It's a complete because I'm too fucking lazy to put everything together. Speed Demons Check Neon Rad #2

I finally finished procrastinating on my Ethnic Literature application. Oh, god. I actually did it yesterday and forgot to turn it in to my English teacher during lunch today. It was Thursday block, so I ended up forgetting I didn't have his class today. At least it's due tomorrow, otherwise I'd be screwed.

Well, today was nothing much. Goodnight, lovelies.

30 ; [Crispy! Not "Krispy"]

Eric keeps singing on Skype. I wonder if he realizes that Derrick and Joannie left the chat already..

So I'm currently on a writers block for my Ethnic Literature application. I also lost that shit..I'm totally screwed. We're also screwed for our English project because after all that recording, the memory card didn't read anything we did. Everything was wiped out. I got so pissed off when we found that out!

Well, I almost fell asleep today in first and second period. Better not do the same tomorrow. Goodnight, lovelies.

Today ended with this sentence and a thought.

29 ; [Turtle Sex]

My 32nd post on Scream For Love. I'm so proud of myself! Right now we're my English group and I are trying to record moaning sounds for our project. Yes, we're doing moaning sounds for a class project, I mean, why not? Our teacher said to keep it rated PG-13 at least, so we'll blacking out the screen and having the moaning sounds. Aha. ; u ;

I'm currently too lazy to write anything and nothing really interesting happened. I'm just working on my honors application again. Borrowing a book from my love tomorrow.

This day ended with this sentence and a thought.

28 ; [Black Tied Neck]

Dancing in the rain

Eric, Derrick and I went down to the park to shoot most of our English video project. Joannie couldn't make it though. We had many difficulties in the rain...

Eric and Derrick had to take off their pants and put on towels, so being the only girl, I felt really uncomfortable! Aha. When they finally finished changing, we recorded the parts then I had to strip my shirt off to reveal my tanktop. Oh, goodness. It started pouring too! I'm officially going to get sick, even though I said that in my last post, I know for sure I'm going to. Sadly even though we got awesome footage, the sound was shit and we all have to do voiceovers on Skype tomorrow night. Super complicated!

What to do?

It was super cold and Eric left us in the rain. We ate then went to my grandma's house. She kept scolding me about wearing more clothes on a cold and rainy day. Her cat kept staring at Derrick, which apparently scared him a little. Yes, my grandma has a cat and is well aware that I'm allergic. Wonderful.

Well, today ended with me doing the rest of my homework, 10th grade english honors form, this sentence, and a thought.

27 ; [My Nose, Toes, and Hands]

My nose drips from the cold winds of San Fran. I might have gotten sick from attempting our English video project. God, I wish it was sunny just for two days without winds that would blow me off the top of a hill. Today I realized that saying "I need to pee first THEN I'll bake your cookies." does not sound appetizing. My own description of a tampon for you ladies: An absorbent finger up your vagina. Thank you and I hope you'll be using tampons later on in the future.

Oh, so numb!

I'm using names this time because I'm tired of using "friends" and other nicknames.

Today my partners(for english) and I went to Joannie's sister's house again. Well, after we first spent a few hours out in the cold on a hill where it was extremely COLD and windy. I had lost feeling in my cheeks(face) and hands at that time. After everybody felt sick and cold, we finally stopped rehearsing, then we officially went to her sister's house.

There swam the big fish again. Eric, Derrick, and I all thought that the fish got bigger since the last time we came over to do the project. My mom and I had baked cookies for them to be polite and it was devoured. Seriously. Aha. I even ate some myself. We basically lost interest in the project after a few minutes and played games for a hour or so.

After a while, we needed to go back to the hill with costumes to record. Let's just say that the guys did not enjoy this part. Stripped, cold, VERY windy. We couldn't stop laughing at Eric and his girly poses as well.

Well, today was very long, fun(?), and somewhat stressful.

Today ended with this sentence and a thought.

26 ; [Want, Want, Want (Hesh)]

Where have you been?!

It's been a while since I've written. Since Chinese New Years to be exact. Well, first of all, I've been obsessing over some SkullCandy. I have a sweet tooth for pretty things. Black and white, over the ear, Hesh headphones.

Sexy, no? It's about $50 so I might get it using my Chinese New Year money. I know, such a waste, but I love music. My cousin has Hesh headphones too, so I tried them on. Instantly fell in love with them! Literally. I almost ran out the door with them on and plugged into my iPod.

Oh, I managed to get a first generation iTouch from my cousin for $40. He was giving it to me for free because he didn't want it, but my mom payed him anyway and I payed her back. Plus, he gave us a sort of "discount" because it was jail broken too. My uncle had to fix it before letting me use it.

I'm currently looking at some random stuff on HT's website. Just looking at body jewelery scares me. I'm pretty weak when it comes to that type of stuff and yet I want a lip piercing. Wow. Looking at this makes me think of those people with large ear piercings that require "plugs". Then when you take out the plugs, the ear is all curled up and shit. So gross. Looking through the page links, I saw "Over 1" Plugs". Oh, god. A hole over one inch in the ear..

Scribbly Isn't A Word

I blame my cousins for my addiction to "Chop Suey!" by System Of a Down. Aha. It's super old, but I still like it. So Sunday was my little cousin's birthday party. Yes, we celebrated his birthday on Chinese New Year and Valentines Day. Almost everybody at that party got to spend time with their boyfriend or girlfriend but me. Aha. My mom kept making fun of me because I was the only person without.

My cousin kept shooting Legos at me the whole time then attacked me with a huge balloon. Yes, it was fun. When he played RockBand, he threw the sticks at me when he lost. Children are so wonderful.

25 ; [Tigers Fall In Love]

贡干草发财! ; u ; Year of the Tiger! And aside from that, Happy Valentines Day! First of all, I'd like to thank my love for the beautiful roses and fluff ball known as a teddy bear. I love you so very much.

Okay, so yesterday we went out to dinner for Chinese New Years. Of course, we had some problems with the food coming out on time. We waited about two hours for our food and I swear somebody got up and took his own dish from the kitchen. Then I heard a group of people applaud for the guy. Well, I want to draw a picture of Valentine and Chinese New Years, but I sadly, I've procrastinated too much.

In celebration of Chinese New Year, we're going to...

GO TO MY COUSIN'S BIRTHDAY PARTY.

Yeah, that's right. Us Chinese people are so awesome. Apparently my uncle's girlfriend invited herself to the party and thinks that we're celebrating Chinese New Years.(She's white. LOL.) She even invited her mother. I find it quite funny that she still thinks we're celebrating Chinese New Years and not my cousin's birthday. I'll be sure to keep my mouth shut about that. Aha. I just want to see her reaction so badly.

Alright, I'm off to get pelted with Legos and negotiate with my cousin about an iTouch.

The day has officially started for me.

24 ; [Where's My Duck?!]

The day didn't really start until 11am. My dad found my mom's old camera from when she took photography in highschool. The bag as really dusty; about six years of dust accumulated on it. Well, for a few minutes, I sat outside on the porch and dusted it off. While doing that, my dad said something about dust mites and that's when I jumped up and started screaming in circles. The thought of small bugs in dust all over me just gives me the "heebie jeebies". Finally, I finished dusting it off and got new batteries. Oh, my god. The focus on the camera was just too beautiful! Turns out that it didn't work and the batteries didn't work. I was disappointed as hell when I couldn't use it so I started walking around the house and look at objects from the camera's point of view.

After getting ready, my sister, mom and I left for a Chinese New Year dinner. Turns out we weren't the only ones. (Not that I wasn't expecting a whole crowd of Chinese people or anything.) The place was packed! Jesus, I thought I was going to drown in people.

During the dinner, my uncle said a lot of things that were on his mind. It was funny though. The first thing was when we wanted duck, he said to the waitress: "WHERE'S MY DUCK?! DUCK DUCK DUCK!" And she sort of ignored him. He said it again and she answered in chinese while walking away "It's coming soon." "OHHH, so you do speak English." I was laughing so hard that my sides starting hurting. My cousin's girlfriend was sort of surprised because normally that isn't something you do at a restaurant. A half hour later he asks the same lady again and she says "It's coming soon" "That's what you said half an hour ago!"

The second thing that happened was my uncle was playing with my little cousin and this girl comes by lifting a chair over her head. "OH, MY GOD! SHE'S GOING TO HIT YOU WITH A CHAIR! WATCH OUT!" And the girl seemed to be confused and laughed nervously. Apparently she was heading for the bathroom as well. Calling after the girl with the chair: "WAIT WAIT! Why are you bringing that chair in the bathroom?! (announces to the restaurant,) There's a party in the girls bathroom!!!!" A few minutes later she comes back out and he asks her where the chair was. I laughed so much after that. My sides cramped up too. Oh, god. Hilarious.

When I mentioned to my cousin that we were going to buy crepes after dinner, he says "What?! Crepes?" He consults his girlfriend and they say maybe. I sort of nudge them a look saying that they should go and get crepes with us. My cousin took out his phone and called his dad since they were a table away from us and the restaurant was too loud and crowded. When his dad picked up he says "DAD, give the phone to mom! I need to ask her something." and my mom's response was "What's the magic word that you should tell him?" and my cousin says: "Fine, Dad can you give the phone to mom NOW?!" I swear, family gatherings are so funny. Of course he was just joking around.

I guess that's the end for today. I'm off to bake cookies now. No, I'm serious about the cookie part. I need to bake for my cousin's birthday tomorrow and for a certain somebody. Aha. Lot's of love.

This day ended with a sentence and a thought.

23 ; [Playing The Child]

Guess what?

I got a Nerf Gun now.

Jealous?

I know you are.

22 ; [Playback]

Because I didn't have enough time to write about yesterday, I shall write about both as one chunk of playback.

021110

Yesterday morning started off somewhat late. My mom said she woke me up at 6am, but I heard nothing until 6:30. I like getting up early on block schedule days so that I can do homework that I forgot or eat a bigger breakfast. Yes, I'm a pig, thank you very much. Since I didn't get up early enough, we ended up rushing out the door with me holding a piece of toast in a paper towel and a cup of orange juice. My sister was sick for the third time this week. I bet she's acting so that she could play MapleStory with her "new" friends. I use to be like that; going on FaceBook, drawing, and such. I feel so ashamed of myself, yet I laughed at that.

Second period block. Depressed. Felt like crying, but pulled self together after a while.

During fourth period block, we had a tutorial in AVID. My friend drew a tiny mustache on his finger then asked if it was possible to get poisoned from it. Somebody else at the table told him that it could go into his bloodstream. Of course, he bolted out of his chair and got a handful of hand sanitizer. It turned blue after a while then he said something like: "It's turning blue! BLUEEE!! NOOO! I don't wanna die!" I just stared and laughed at how funny his overreactions were. He's awesome though. After recovering from the ink washing, he said "I'm never writing on my hand ever again. I don't want to die!"

During lunch, I went to hiphop club with my friends and learned a bit more of Tie Me Down. After learning those moves, I wanted to learn more of the Lovegame dance, but sadly, lunch was over. We should get a longer lunch period!

Sixth period block, this new kid in our art class makes a lot of racist jokes but he doesn't even realize it until we all burst out in laughter. I'm currently keeping a list of racist jokes that he makes to prove that he's racist himself. Aha. But he's pretty funny if you look at it. I finally finished my tint and shades painting for that class after a whole grading period. I'm so awesome at art(failing). I got to start a new project, which I'm having problems with because of the color mixing. Plus, somebody keeps stealing the sugar cup I'm drawing, so I don't have a model at times.

021210

Today started out with me in a deep sleep. In my dream, I'm standing in a puddle with yellow rain boots. I have no clue why I'd have a dream like that though. Well, all of a sudden my mom is a cloud trying to wake me up from sleep and I scream back to her " five more minutes! ". When I wake up from the dream, it's ten minutes after and I'm thinking: that cloud didn't come back to wake me up...

Arriving at school: several people were in front of my locker. I think to myself: Oh, jeez. What's going on? (grumpy mood from lack of sleep.) When I get to the locker, I try to move through the group of people to open my locker. To my surprise, I see a fluffy ball with a bow inside and start laughing. Get up, attack my love, and throw thank yous left and right. I get a bunch of roses from him too! GAHHH. I'm a bad girlfriend. I fell asleep before I could bake those special things for him. ; n ; (don't think wrong!)

Today was Pink Tsunami too, where people wear pink in response to a boy in Canada who was bullied for wearing pink. This was a disappointment, people! I mean seriously! Only a few teachers participated and students that did participate were either super dedicated to the day or had gotten "pink taped" by my friend. Shame on you people. I was dedicated enough to wear my friend's pink pajamas with Hello Kitty on it. You have no clue how much that burned. Aha. Thank you for the lending, love.

First period algebra was so retarded. I hate how our teacher tells us to use the hard and stupid ways of solving problems for tests. There are simpler ways to solve the fucking problem and she tells us to use a "generic rectangle". Seriously?! I mean, REALLY?!

During second period, people would keep walking behind me to get through the class. Apparently I'm fat and have to scoot in every few seconds because people want to go through the hard way. I also kept my roses on the table behind me, so whoever walked by would say something like "Oh! You got me roses." or "Who got these for you?". Well, my love got them for me. MMMMHM.

During lunch, my friend "dino" wanted to buy a pet goldfish for some odd reason. We still had classes to go to too. So, we ended up walking a few blocks down from school to the fish store and she got a fish. Seriously. When we walked back to school, it seemed as if people were staring at her. I wonder why? Aha. I thought it was cool that she bought a fish and brought it to class as well.

Sixth period I continued working on my new art project. Of course I was failing because half the time I wasn't even using a model until my friend pointed it out. The new guy said two racist jokes already, but I can't remember at the moment.

After school, we visited my old middle school. The first teacher we visited was my 8th grade science teacher. He noticed that my lover and I both had some sort of Valentine in our hands except for my friend. Feeling bad for him, the teacher took the heart sticker on his sweatshirt and stuck it to my friend. He just gave us a look like "omg wtf? LOLWTF???" I found that pretty funny. The second was a gym teacher that told a lot of stories to us. He showed us some odd dance because my friend was showing off his bboy(or break dancing) moves. Side step, side step, SLAM. I just thought to my self: what the fuck is that...?

When we finished up everything at that school, we went to my "gurlfran"'s sister's house to start working on our group English project. Once we walked into the house, we were introduced to "gurlfran"'s younger sisters. The second thing we see right away is the huge (cat...koi..idk) fish and tank in their dining room. My friend and lover just stand in the corner staring at the tank for several minutes while I followed "gurlfran" around the house. Well, her sister offered us some daan taat. Oh, my gosh. I didn't eat those since October at a family dinner. Of course, I had to have one. Aha. Right after, my friend had to leave for Bboy rehersals. He's so getting the major parts in the video we're making for English.

While writing the script for our video, I devoured "gurlfran"'s sister's can of mixed nuts. I think she might be upset with me for eating so much. Well, we had to determine who was going to be the narrator of the story. Gurlfran and my lover tried to make a deal. That deal was so unfair and I didn't even get a say. Aha. The deal was : Love does this really funny imitation of Balboa High school's GTD and get it recorded then I have to narrate the video. Yes, it's quite fair. Well, the script is going well for the first part, which is on Zeus and his affairs with nymphs. (Greek stuff.) And the whole time we tried thinking of ideas, I was distracted by the big fish in the dining room...

Well, too tired to write or remember anything from today but I think that was all of it.

Today ended with a squeeze of a teddy, this sentence + 2, and a thought.

Thank you again for the roses and bear, love. (: I had so much fun today you guys.

21.5; [The Actress]

Today started out with me buried under my blankets. Turns out most of my blog posts start out this way. The love for partying and staying up late kills a lot of my sleep. I end up saying: "I'm doing homework." until 3am and only get a few hours before I have to get ready for school. I wish I lived closer to school, that way I wouldn't have to wake up so fucking early. My sister's birthday is today! I woke up before her and jumped on her bed screaming "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!". Of course, she looked at me like I was crazy and told me to get out so that she could sleep. Unfortunately she's sick, so she has a stuffy nose and stomach ache. Happy 12th, sis.

I acted crazy during first period. We had the class for an hour and a half and I just couldn't sit still. Actually, I can never sit still. Well, we had to do work on graphing calculators, so I got overexcited, jumped around and started screaming. Something is mentally wrong with me. Most likely A.D.D. Don't judge me! It's possible. So, when we had to press a certain button on the calculator, I'd scream out "YAY! I DID IT!" and this girl next to me would just laugh at how excited I'd get over it. Playing the stereotypical dumb blonde (chinese filipino). LOLJK!

Third period French 2. Oh, god. I failed so badly at presenting a CUP. A cup. How hard it is to present a cup?! Well, apparently it's a challenge for special people like me. The teacher told me to get the glass cup next to the plastic one. I wasn't listening and picked up the plastic cup several times; putting it down and picking it up again. I'm amazing at French! Everybody is jealous of my talent. When I finally got the correct cup, I had to place it on the table next to a bunch of other items. Of course, I had a problem with that as well. I couldn't tell my left from right. This was one of my saddest moments in French ever. I shall hide my face in shame now.

Lunch time. We walk to BSA auditions, walk down the hill from school, walk back up deciding it was too late and we'd be late for class if we didn't hurry back, we watch HipHop club practice a dance to PYT (Pretty Young Thing) then went off to fifth period English.

My parents are deciding which honors English class I should take in Sophmore year. I would die in AP English, literally. OH, aside from that, I think the Sophmore's have cooler t-shirts than Freshman. Sophisticated Sophmores. I think that's way awesome than Flawless Freshman. (No offence to other freshies out there.) The t-shirts for Sophmores is a simple white shirt with a bowtie. Damn, that's what I call sexy. Well, during English, I bombed a Greek God test and almost fell asleep. Horray!

After school, I fell asleep in the hallway and was woken up by two certain people that don't know when to stay still! Just kidding...maybe...not. I tried doing a split in the air. Oh, god. I hurt my thighs the first time from stretching it too much. I actually did the jump though. ; u ; I should've taken ballet, but I decided not to since I loved swimming more. Now what sucks is is that I can't do swimming because I'm too poor and have breathing problems. Hopefully *hinthint* somebody will take me swimming during the Summer. Actually, that was a hint to basically anyone who read this sentence.

Well, today ended with this sentence(plus the last one) and a thought. Good day to you, sir.

21 ; [The Emo Post That Is Me]

Time for Jazmine's fake emo post. ^.^
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I close my eyes and think to myself.

All the seconds wasted.

Was it really a waste of time?

It's like I threw it all away.

I don't want to have these feelings anymore.

I'm going to make the same mistake again, aren't I?

I'm ruining myself.

Again.

I look at others and myself:

"Am I happy this way? Why can't I turn back time and fix it all?"

Did I really mean to do that?

It's killing me.

I live with these scars now.

I'm just a child. What am I doing?

I've messed up too much. Every one of them.

I'd apologize if "I'm sorry" even had a meaning anymore.

But it doesn't.

And to look at the ones that are broken deep inside.

I feel like I was once in their shoes.

I don't want other to feel this way..

It hurts too much. Too much within the heart.

Well too bad! Life doesn't have a fucking restart button, Jazmine!

I have to get over it all. Live it well; live with those scars. It's my fault and nothing about that can change. Keeping the weaknesses beneath the mask..the mask that everyone has to see. Not that ugly face covered in tears and sorrow. Not that sickening face. Not that stupid, disgusting ,unwanted face. The one that keeps you going. The one that makes other feel better.

❝Don't ever press that replay button. Keep in motion; play. Play the music on and on. Don't stop. Sure, stopping is possible, but why would you want that? ❞
-moi

A post to make myself cry. Thanks. Writing an actual post later. ; u ;

20 ; [How does she move like that?!]

Today started out with me buried underneath my blankets, struggling to get out of the tangled mess. My room is officially a fire hazard now that the other parts of the house have been cleaned. My dad finally got up off his lazy booty and cleaned the basement. I can finally start skating and dancing again. I just need to buy a mirror for the basement. My mom thinks that if I get a mirror for the basement, I'll see my own reflection at night and run back upstairs screaming. That's so true though.

First period is super boring every day. I find no interest in even passing ALGEBRA because of her. Plus, she doesn't even post the homework up on SchoolLoop until everybody is asleep. What's wrong with her? Everything I say! Second period we had a quick quiz. Easy peasy. I think I got one wrong though; question numbre uno, of course.

Lunch finally came and I had Hip Hop club. Oh, jeez. I finally understand the dance. I'm so proud of myself! It's LoveGame by Lady "googoogaga". I hate her music so much! But, I must work harder to get into a good college. Hopefully this is worth it, eventhough I highly doubt it. We had to put down our shirt sizes for club t-shirts. I'm truly fat, so I bet since I ordered a small, you can see my belly stick out. Aha. I'd laugh so hard though. It wouldn't matter that much since we all sweat when we dance. What's the point in buying a large size if you want to breath?!

During Art class, I ate the other half of my Vietnamese sandwich. My teacher doesn't care that much about me eating in her class as long as I finish my work. I got a B in art as my final grade. I officially fail as an Asian. Thanks. Aha, when she was working with us in painting, another art teacher came in with a naked picture of a lady and said: "Okay, I think (inserts person's name here because I seriously don't remember) will like this as a reference." Then she laughed crazily. I love her laugh. It's hard to describe though..It's just amazing. That sounded horny. ; n ;

When it was time for gym, I reviewed hip hop dance moves with some girls that are in the club. I also did some Polynesian dance moves to loosen up. AHA.

After school, I taunted my love with tricks that I can do and he can't. Like making popping noises with my finger+mouth (SOUNDS SO WRONG!) and popping gum. I'm nice like that. I missed Hip Hop because I wasn't aware of "after-after school practice" because unlike others, I have a seventh period. Well, I'm not going to preform for BSA (hiphop). Most likely I'll be preforming for Polynesian since I'm more experienced there.

You know what's a really boring and sleepy-like song? House of Cards - RadioHead. Jesus! I had it on replay all night and I couldn't get up in the morning. Don't ever try it.

Quick update on what I've been up to for the past few days:
Hip Hop and Polynesian practice
Celebrating my sister's birthday party
and having fun in bed.

Today ended with a long sigh of relief, a shiver, a kiss, this sentence, and a thought.

19 ; [Fire & Ice!]

Oh, god. The title is a super funny inside joke. Well, maybe not. My cousins and I watched True Jackson VP on Nickelodeon and one of the characters wanted to sing a love song to his girlfriend. The guy he was talking to suggested to scream "FIRE AND ICE" in the middle of the song and the way he screamed it was so freakin' hilarious! My mom imitated it a few seconds after and we bursted out laughing for another five minutes. She's very good at screamo(?).

Today was my sister's early birthday party. My toddler of a cousin caused so much trouble while he was over at our house. First off, he brought this StarWars lego ship and kept fucking shooting me with it. Okay, why did Lego even add shooters to the toy?! The child already throws the Legos at people themselves! One of the times when he shot it was when I was totally spaced out then all of a sudden he shoots it at my forehead and I screamed: "aiya!" The second thing he did was steal my seat in the livingroom. When I tried sitting down on it when he left, he came out from the kitchen screaming and kicking me, then I fell on the ground and he told me to go home. (It was my house..)

Quotes from my little cousin:
-"YOU'RE A MEATBALL!(insult)"
-"I went to McDonald's today. SHHH. It's a secret."

Today ended with this sentence and a thought.

18.5 ; [Springin']

Lately I've seen FormSpring.me all over the place, especially Facebook. Of course, being the follower type of person I am, I joined it. Goddamn, you have no clue how many perverted questions I got. I even got a few "are you a whore?" questions. Thanks for making me feel good, world. I love you too! JESUS. Aha. I laughed at them though. I like FormSpring already. Especially laughed at the person who asked my bra size. I know I'm flat, stop rubbing it in!

Well, I'm officially tired. Finished half of my Myth, Bio worksheet, studied for English test tomorrow, and my French homework. Oh, god. So much crap.

Today ended with tired eyes, this sentence, and a thought.

18 ; [The Blank Canvas]

I drew this for me and my "gurlfran". We're the original staches at our school. Aha.

First off, I'd like to write one thing: I'm a super lazy asshole! Well, today started off at 6am, like every morning. My bedsheets don't get messed up anymore now that I've been more relaxed. Probably because they're super warm and I don't have to struggle in the middle of sleep in order to get blankets on top of me. It's weird how this house doesn't have a heater or something like that. We all know (insert location here.) is fucking cold no matter what. Just imagine, I used to take Polynesian at 7pm-9pm every Tuesday in a skirt with the doors and windows wide open. The center we danced at was near the beach too.

Today was a block schedule, so we started at 8am this morning. I got there about a half an hour earlier than I was supposed to be, so I went to my second period class and just sat there. Three other people were there before me. Aha. One was doing some late lab conclusion and studying dihybrid crosses, another was listening to music with some kick-ass SkullCandy headphones and sleeping, and the other was sitting quietly at his desk. My teacher was listening to some light rock on the radio, so that I didn't disturb her with my annoying squeak of a voice, I put in my earphones and turned up the music. I believe I was listening to the bands Burden Of The Day and Underoath. Well, that was all I had time for.

During class, we had to write an example for Dihybrid crosses. Of course, I was chosen to go up for our group and explain the works. And obviously I wasn't listening to the group plan, so I made everything up as I presented. Luckily, I learned about crosses in seventh grade. Thank the hawk! Aha. I don't get why we need to have "pod groups". This is where people at certain tables are grouped together and get participation points for answering and explaining given questions. I'm just glad our table always gets chosen, even if I'm the one who has to present. So far, our table has the most points; A+ on every presentation.

I should be doing my French homework, Myth, and UC Santa Barbra projects right now..

During lunch, I felt depressed and wanted to cry. I don't know why though. I always have that feeling like I'm going to burst into tears and lay on the ground screaming, but I always hold it in and push people away. Didn't even let my love kiss me or speak to anyone for that matter. If the question was important, I'd nod with a painted smile. Sometimes my friends say I space out and look like I'm on the verge of crying, even when I don't mean to. After recovering from it all, I'm "super happy sunshine girl". I'm just happy I can even recover. Sometimes I hear from the most joyful people I've ever met and they tell me: "I'm depressed.." It actually hurts to hear a friend say that when they know I can't do shit to help them. I feel bad about it. But, yeah. That's life for you.

Sixth period block; I clutched onto my boyfriend's hand and he sighed: "I don't want to go to class." I didn't feel like it today either, so we asked "gurlfran" if she wanted to skip sixth today. She said no because her sister would kick the shit out of her, plus she had a drama scene to do. Once she got into class, we took a turn out the side exit and walked down the hill. "Oh, shit. I think I should take off this sweatshirt. It has the name of our school on it.." And thus, he stuffed his sweatshirt into his backpack. I just wanted to get off the same street as our school before the councilers came around in a police car. Yes, they take rides from the police since the station is just a block down from our school and they patrol the lunch areas.

We basically walked as fast as we could down the block. So funny. When we got two blocks down, we saw one of my boyfriend's classmates. He looked stoned..most likely he was. He came out of a house with two other guys and they had trouble walking straight and speaking. Aha. So many students at my school do drugs. I might be one of them, but that's a secret. I remember saying this to somebody before:

"I want to try some of (insert person's name here.)'s weed."
"Aha, yeah, but be careful, it burns your throat."
"I'm aware of that."
"Wait...you're serious?!"
"What, you thought I was kidding?"

But I was damned serious. Gosh. I've been in my uncles room and it's covered in ashes. Literally, it's everywhere! Even on top of his clothing. I've basically suffered from secondhand smoke as a child.

Well, we had about an hour and a half to do whatever until my friend got out of school. We spent that that time walking in the park. My boyfriend thinks I'm trying to get him hit by a car. It's because every time we try to cross the street, I run while pulling him with me and he isn't paying attention. Apparently some people don't know when to stop at a stop sign. Dumbasses. Almost freakin' killed us today! Jesus. Some people should just go back to drivers school.

When we got down to one of the busiest streets in our city, I tried jwalking(running) as fast as I could while holding onto him. I grabbed his chest area and dragged him over while he screamed like a little girl. Yeah, this is why I love him so much. Aha. Actually, he does that quite often. I find it..cute? I don't know. I saw a squirrel and it was hiding behind a tree and he didn't see it, I said "SQUIRREL!" and he looks behind the tree, screams like a little girl again, then ran the opposite direction. I think people stared at him. I laughed though. I'm scared of furry animals too, but I don't know why I didn't run. I remembered we sat down on a park bench for a few minutes and some creepy man was watching us from his car. I was too freaked out to stick around, so I dragged him again.

It started raining and it was just about time for our school to get out. 1:30pm. So, we headed over to a Pho place. My, god. I'm such a fatass. I compared my butt to my boyfriends, and mine was huge. I want some freakin' surgery and get my fat sucked out! Yeah, seriously, but I'll never do anything to my face or chest..Ew, disgusting.

Well, after my friend got back from school, we went off to her house to watch The Hangover. She only showed us the funny parts. I need to watch the whole thing. It was so funny, but my parents hate watching rated R movies since they can basically do / show anything. In the middle of the movie, I needed to pee. The two made fun of me because one time I ran three blocks just to go to my friends house just to pee. She wasn't even home yet. Everybody asked why I was only able to run fast when I needed to pee, but not during gym when I really need to run for class.

I might write later if I get done with my homework on time.
This entry ended with this sentence and electric cellos.

17; [The Game Of Life]

Today we had the math portion of the exit exam prep. Super easy 7th grade stuff, there. I was totally relaxed during the test, but I was worried that others were able to hear my iPod since I'm somewhat deaf and can't hear through my earphones. Our homeroom teacher didn't care as long as we didn't talk during the exam.

After everybody was finished with the exam, we played The Game Of Life again on my friends iTouch. They all gained up on me because I wouldn't let my boyfriend go to Polynesian club and watch. I ended up broke, no children, a whore for a wife, lost my job twice, and retired with half a million dollars all my life. POOR RACHEL(me)! I'm also upset that somebody kept suing me for $100,000.00 I went into the freakin' negatives for Pete's sake!

Had Polynesian today. I kept trying to make certain friends leave because I wouldn't be able to concentrate. I even attacked the door to tell them to go away. Aha. Well, I'm too tired to continue writing. I stayed up all this time to talk to my boyfriend and "gurlfran" eventhough we saw each other a few hours ago. Then I did my stupid Myth story for English.

Well, today ended with some playful love, sweet candy, loud music, this sentence, and a thought.

16 ; [Cutting Down The Branches]

Today started off with me sprawled across my bed. I believe I was in a deep sleep because I didn't hear my mom trying to wake me up five times and there was a pool of water next to my face. My down blanket is just too warm to even want to get out of bed. I had my first bowl of cereal this year; Reeses Puffs. Yes, I chose the most unhealthy cereal out there.

Afterwards, I texted my friend in the car. She told me her house smelled like cat, but her cat smells like coffee, which means her house smelled like coffee, not cat. Then she said something about curry and Thai iced tea. So confusing! Well, I was supposed to pick her up and go to school because of Exit Exams. I said I would be there at 9:30 then I show up at her door at 9:00 and say "I'm HERE! *SMILE*". She looked rather disturbed to see my face that morning. Gee, I wonder why?

We spent about an hour on the pre-exit exam. Easy english shit. We have math tomorrow. Even easier shit for the Asians. Our homeroom teacher gave us free fruit snacks during the exam because she had too much food in her classroom. Horray, cherry. ; u ; (guhh, I don't like cherry that much. Oh, the cherry medicine! Yucky.) It's funny how my homeroom teacher didn't let my boyfriend sit at the same table as me just because we're going out. Unfairness! We both threw a fit. Aha. After the test, my friend and I doodled "bootyful" people in her sketchbook. I kept drawing the same thing on each person; large nostrils, ear hair, goatee, and a unibrow. They were so wonderful looking.

Oh, my god! Why is it that guys try to crush me whenever they hug me just because I don't have boobs in the way?! Okay, I'm done.

My friend sitting across from us lent us his iTouch because he was watching South Park with my boyfriend. We played "The Game Of Life". Oh, god. Bob(me) was losing so badly to Mary(my friend). She got the actor career and I got a teacher or some shit. She got four paydays in one spin and went three times before I could even start moving on the board! And guess what? When it was my turn, I got...a one. ONE?! Oh, come on! Bob apparently doesn't have much of a successful life. Everytime I'd get a high numbered spin, I'd end up getting taxed and losing 100k or getting money lent over to my friend. ; n ; Wonderful game.

I went to Hip Hop practice for the first time in months. My goodness, I had so many problems learning the dance moves. My fat butt wasn't made for hip hop club, but I do it anyway. We're doing a dance to Love Game by Lady GaGa. The moves are too girly for a manly woman like me! Almost everytime I try to learn a dance, the person teaching it tells me to flirt with the crowd. One of the students teaching us said that she wanted a "play pole" for a dollar. Our other instructor's response was: "WHY WOULD THEY DO THAT TO KIDS?! Just because Miley Cyrus did that at the Teen Choice Awards. Damn, Miley Cyrus."

The long day was torture and I basically only had to go to two classes today. I was too annoyed with things to go to my annoying ass Algebra teacher's class. (FUCK. Yes, I'm in Algebra. I'm a bad Asian.) So, I cut with my two friends and went to "Hip Hop practice". It was sad because we really did do hip hop practice and I was having a lot of problems with counts. I got the moves down, but I can't keep in tempo, plus I have slow reactions.

Well, I'm done writing for today. My mom bought me fourteen pairs of sunglasses. One of them made me look like Crazy Loop.I loved his shoes in his Crazy Loop music video because they looked like Vans. Horray! Okay, Polynesian club tomorrow.

Today ended with hiding in the stairwell, airpopped popcorn, the band Apocalyptica (Totally awesome metal/instrumental/Alternative rock band!), this sentence, and a thought.

15 ; [The Urge]

For some odd reason I had the sudden urge to try smoking. I have no clue why though. I'm not depressed or anything like that, but I felt like I wanted to try it. I think I'm going crazy again. Ew, and I hate when people ask if I think it's "cool". What kind of retarded question is that? It's an outlet. Jesus Christ.

Nothing to write today. I'm too tired.

We get to take the exit exam prep tomorrow, so I get a few minutes of extra sleep. (9:45 am)

Oh, and for the Captain Obvious title: IT'S FEBRUARY, PEOPLE!

Well, today ended with this sentence and a thought.