Flobot - Handlebars
I honestly love the concept of this song. I found it inspiring and poetic(even though all songs are suppose to be poetic.). Just the fact that the singers start out with a simple thing like being able to ride a bike without handlebars then the more complicated things they're capable of doing as a human being; how a person like them can create violence and death of others. It's hard to explain, but it really hit me deep.
Another thing that moved me was a post quoting Lady Gaga:
"Some people have to choose between their career and love. Well, one day your career won't wake up in the same bed as you and say it doesn't love you anymore."
Or something close to that, but it really moved me.
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Lincoln vs. Balboa:
Way to go Bal, you didn't have any Varsity girls...
0-64. LOL.
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English honors essay was today and it was so freakin' easy. o_o Like, seriously. AND the passage was really nice and poetic sounding. I actually enjoyed this essay and found it easy to write about. Hopefully I'm not going to be on the waiting list next year because I feel like I did pretty well on it.
Dinner and homework time. Au revoir.
20110228
20110224
Snow?
I hope it snows tomorrow just for Derrick. This young man has never seen snow and I demand the sky to make it snow just for him!
goodnight and thank you very much.
goodnight and thank you very much.
20110223
reasons
I guess music and artwork will always be my passion because of Hayao Miyazaki. Everything about the music in his animations and the way he tells fairy tales just makes me feel proud. I don't exactly know why, but it's just one of the best feelings you can ever have.
Howl's Moving Castle & Spirited Away were my favorite.
Howl's Moving Castle & Spirited Away were my favorite.
physics + deadmau5
= getting no work done.
I can't concentrate with Deadmau5 playing in the background, but I really love the sound and can't stop listening. Would this be considered a problem?
Well, I did dry-land practice today for swim team. I was actually surprised at how long I really lasted in running compared to gym runs. We ran all the way up to "Turtle Hill", walked down the tiled stairs then did 3 flights down and up again. Afterward, we did a short sprint up a hill while in the middle of the road; I got a terrible cramp from it, but whatever it was worth it.
Tomorrow is a short day meaning FOOD. Lots and lots of it. Well, not a whole load of food since I have practice tomorrow as well. I have to be able to make it through practice since there's an actual meet Friday. Oh, goshhhh it came so fast! I swear we just had AAA (which I did not attend due to back problems.) and a week later another?! I'm seriously nervous since I haven't exactly been shaping up like the rest of the team. I just hope our coach doesn't give me something like a 500 yard IM or whatever. I'll die of embarrassment! Anyway, back to Thursday. So, tomorrow I only have Computer Arts, Gym, and Physics. At least the day ends with someone good. (:
Off to work on Physics. Au revoir.
I can't concentrate with Deadmau5 playing in the background, but I really love the sound and can't stop listening. Would this be considered a problem?
Well, I did dry-land practice today for swim team. I was actually surprised at how long I really lasted in running compared to gym runs. We ran all the way up to "Turtle Hill", walked down the tiled stairs then did 3 flights down and up again. Afterward, we did a short sprint up a hill while in the middle of the road; I got a terrible cramp from it, but whatever it was worth it.
Tomorrow is a short day meaning FOOD. Lots and lots of it. Well, not a whole load of food since I have practice tomorrow as well. I have to be able to make it through practice since there's an actual meet Friday. Oh, goshhhh it came so fast! I swear we just had AAA (which I did not attend due to back problems.) and a week later another?! I'm seriously nervous since I haven't exactly been shaping up like the rest of the team. I just hope our coach doesn't give me something like a 500 yard IM or whatever. I'll die of embarrassment! Anyway, back to Thursday. So, tomorrow I only have Computer Arts, Gym, and Physics. At least the day ends with someone good. (:
Off to work on Physics. Au revoir.
20110222
Hate watching
I like doing things more than watching and listening. Today during swim practice, I was able to make it through 3/4 of the whole thing, but then after awhile my back started raging with pain again. Seriously, I've been resting up for two weeks, gotten a massage, a weird-ass massage with electrostatic shocking into my muscles, and just sleeping more. But still, apparently none of it worked and I'm back to where I started; aching back all day and night.
While sitting out that one last part of practice, I sat on the side, watching everybody else dive into the pool and piercing into the still water. How jealous was I, staring at the people lining up to dive off blocks. I was jealous that everybody there was just fine, no problems. It's stupid that I have to watch those people with no problems while I sit there, looking as dumb as ever saying: "Oh...my back hurts again."
I envy all of those people. I can't breath, I can't swim, I can't walk, I can barely sleep. This is stupid.
I have to make it to the next meet Friday because apparently, I might get cut if I miss two meets in a row. Bullshit. I guess I'll have to try as hard as I can without ruining my back completely.
Well, time to do Physics.
Hate it. Au revoir.
While sitting out that one last part of practice, I sat on the side, watching everybody else dive into the pool and piercing into the still water. How jealous was I, staring at the people lining up to dive off blocks. I was jealous that everybody there was just fine, no problems. It's stupid that I have to watch those people with no problems while I sit there, looking as dumb as ever saying: "Oh...my back hurts again."
I envy all of those people. I can't breath, I can't swim, I can't walk, I can barely sleep. This is stupid.
I have to make it to the next meet Friday because apparently, I might get cut if I miss two meets in a row. Bullshit. I guess I'll have to try as hard as I can without ruining my back completely.
Well, time to do Physics.
Hate it. Au revoir.
20110217
Very cold
Today went by fast and I felt a bit more relaxed than usual. My back still hurt today so I ended up not dressing for P.E.. My gym teacher doesn't mind since I normally dress and participate during class, so he gave me a decent grade on my pacers and didn't count me as a suit cut.
This was a kids' movie! What in the world was this doing in it?! I haven't seen it though; this was used as a GIF on Tumblr.
Speaking of Tumblr, I discovered how to use endless scroll on my dashboard, so instead of pressing the left, right, up, AND down keys, I only have to use the down and up keys for my viewing pleasure. I know that sounds sort of wrong and all, but at least it's only pictures of men eating out their girlfriends instead of infected penises (cough, 4chan.org slamming.). Anyway, I was able to reblog only a million pictures of Justin Bieber to make Derrick jealous; it worked and he got so cute and "chubby-faced". SO CUTE.
My love, Derrick is way cuter. Especially with his cute and pink cheeks. (:
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Alright, so after school, Derrick took me to this place on Geary: My Tofu House. The food there is so good. I felt really bad that the prices were so high so I insisted on chipping in with Derrick, but of course the little butt face wouldn't let me. I told him I wouldn't let him pay the lady until he accepted my 10 bucks. The soft tofu soup was so good, but wasn't as spicy as I expected for a "medium" spiced soup. I guess next time I'll try the "spicy" one. (: Hopefully I can handle it. Oh, and the rice dish was delicious, especially with the pieces of octopus steamed into it. Man, I'm making myself hungry again.
Well, nothing much else to say?
We took the limited bus back to school and went separate ways home.
This was a kids' movie! What in the world was this doing in it?! I haven't seen it though; this was used as a GIF on Tumblr.
Speaking of Tumblr, I discovered how to use endless scroll on my dashboard, so instead of pressing the left, right, up, AND down keys, I only have to use the down and up keys for my viewing pleasure. I know that sounds sort of wrong and all, but at least it's only pictures of men eating out their girlfriends instead of infected penises (cough, 4chan.org slamming.). Anyway, I was able to reblog only a million pictures of Justin Bieber to make Derrick jealous; it worked and he got so cute and "chubby-faced". SO CUTE.
My love, Derrick is way cuter. Especially with his cute and pink cheeks. (:
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Alright, so after school, Derrick took me to this place on Geary: My Tofu House. The food there is so good. I felt really bad that the prices were so high so I insisted on chipping in with Derrick, but of course the little butt face wouldn't let me. I told him I wouldn't let him pay the lady until he accepted my 10 bucks. The soft tofu soup was so good, but wasn't as spicy as I expected for a "medium" spiced soup. I guess next time I'll try the "spicy" one. (: Hopefully I can handle it. Oh, and the rice dish was delicious, especially with the pieces of octopus steamed into it. Man, I'm making myself hungry again.
Well, nothing much else to say?
We took the limited bus back to school and went separate ways home.
20110215
Sorry, I can't afford a Ferrari
YouTube is down and I'm attempting to dance to this with back pains.
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Today was rather boring. All I did was excite for the end of the day only to go home to a boring load of homework. School is such a drag and I've been completely out of it for months now. My back is completely out so I'm out of swim practice for a bit. This sucks ugly, crooked, deformed penis.
Well, I'm doing make-up work for English class; poetry suddenly isn't so much fun when I have to do it by force.
Au revoir, loves. I'm off to do poetry analysis.
20110214
The truth?!
Honestly, I was only there to care for you. For some reason, I only wanted you to be happy but all I got was a slap in the face. Everyday, a little joke or tiny insult with a meaningless "just kidding" blown at me. Ha! I was a friend to you?! Why would you treat a FRIEND like that? But of course, it's my fault because I went back to YOU because I cared. I made a silly mistake because all the day ended with was the same thing, tears and depression. You made it worse than ever and I never said anything. Why did I even think you were a friend? Even my mom told me you were a bad influence on me and all I'd say to her is, "NO, HE'S MY FRIEND. I won't let what YOU say get in the way of that." But still, the same thing happened every night; burning eyes, "what's the matter, baby?", lame excuses for my tears.
Only to go back to the problem. I was probably a friend to you, but to me, you were the source of all my sadness. But for some reason, something about you just made me want to care for you and make sure you were happy.
This is why I am so upset.
I'm mad at myself for this,
not because I miss you.
I made a mistake that I just realized now.
During the day, I was happy.
When you looked away, I was dying.
Not like you cared anyway, I was just a punching bag for your feelings towards others. I was the one you said hurtful things about others to as well.
I was just a nobody that made you feel good inside.
You created a hollow shell and destroyed it every single day you spent with it.
I'd hold your arm, clenching it and waiting for you to accept me instead of insult me, but no. Nothing. When we were with your other friends, you'd treat me like garbage. Only a piece of meat to keep you company if they ignore you. Right?
And those phone calls late at night..
I meant what I said every time you hung up, but I didn't know why I'd say it.
"They aren't just words you know, Jazmine." but I couldn't help myself.
I only wanted to go back to you.
I wanted your happiness.
I sacrificed my own for yours and I now realize that it was all a mistake.
And you were just a person I cared about.
You were wrong, I wasn't faking our friendship, I just hid my tears away from everybody.
But you were right in some ways, it is best if we weren't friends. Honestly, I haven't been happier with the people around me because they all know now. They all know who I am and that's a whole different person whom you'd never want to be friends with EVER again.
That's why I chose someone else.
Only to go back to the problem. I was probably a friend to you, but to me, you were the source of all my sadness. But for some reason, something about you just made me want to care for you and make sure you were happy.
This is why I am so upset.
I'm mad at myself for this,
not because I miss you.
I made a mistake that I just realized now.
During the day, I was happy.
When you looked away, I was dying.
Not like you cared anyway, I was just a punching bag for your feelings towards others. I was the one you said hurtful things about others to as well.
I was just a nobody that made you feel good inside.
You created a hollow shell and destroyed it every single day you spent with it.
I'd hold your arm, clenching it and waiting for you to accept me instead of insult me, but no. Nothing. When we were with your other friends, you'd treat me like garbage. Only a piece of meat to keep you company if they ignore you. Right?
And those phone calls late at night..
I meant what I said every time you hung up, but I didn't know why I'd say it.
"They aren't just words you know, Jazmine." but I couldn't help myself.
I only wanted to go back to you.
I wanted your happiness.
I sacrificed my own for yours and I now realize that it was all a mistake.
And you were just a person I cared about.
You were wrong, I wasn't faking our friendship, I just hid my tears away from everybody.
But you were right in some ways, it is best if we weren't friends. Honestly, I haven't been happier with the people around me because they all know now. They all know who I am and that's a whole different person whom you'd never want to be friends with EVER again.
That's why I chose someone else.
Valentines Day
[17:40] Me: (:
[17:41] Boy I have a crush on: hi =]
[17:43] Me: hi!!!
[17:43] Me: >___< im nervous cuz i have a huge crush on you
[17:43] Me: and and and
[17:43] Me: and
[17:43] Me: and and and
[17:43] Me: and
[17:43] Me: and and
[17:43] Me: andandandnddndndndndndndnd
[17:43] Boy I have a crush on: and? =]
[17:43] Me: uhmmm uhmm
[17:43] Me: i just wanna kiss you
[17:43] Me: >3<
[17:43] Me: ehe
[17:44] Boy I have a crush on: ill kiss you tmrw cuz i got a huge ass crush on you too <3
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Today made me smile and giggle a lot. Kisses. I love him.
[17:41] Boy I have a crush on: hi =]
[17:43] Me: hi!!!
[17:43] Me: >___< im nervous cuz i have a huge crush on you
[17:43] Me: and and and
[17:43] Me: and
[17:43] Me: and and and
[17:43] Me: and
[17:43] Me: and and
[17:43] Me: andandandnddndndndndndndnd
[17:43] Boy I have a crush on: and? =]
[17:43] Me: uhmmm uhmm
[17:43] Me: i just wanna kiss you
[17:43] Me: >3<
[17:43] Me: ehe
[17:44] Boy I have a crush on: ill kiss you tmrw cuz i got a huge ass crush on you too <3
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Today made me smile and giggle a lot. Kisses. I love him.
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