wings

May we stay lost on our way home?

Everything is going by so fast.
I've finally gotten the chance to start reading 'Lolita' by Vladimir Nabokov. Well, now my partner has to read it with me due to this third book project. Seriously, I might as well have gone to AP English; this class is doing more fucking work than they are. What the hell? Originally I was suppose to have 3 APs this year, but I rejected English to have Government and Studio Art. Turns out Government overlapped periods with Studio so I chose Studio for obvious reasons. .-. Oh, well.

I digress. 'Lolita' is so good and I'm only 30 pages in. LOL. I had something better to say but I forgot as I was talking about APs. Anyways, AP Studio is more stressful now that the deadline is inching closer. I literally have a piece sitting in front of me and I'm typing this instead. Well, I have about 10/24 right now. That isn't good. orz. I have about 5-6 in motion right now and just need details and touch-ups. I've abandoned maybe 3 pieces this year already. My main concentration won't take that long since they're simple line portraits that are considered "beautifully simple" (coming from my instructor anyway.).

Lastly, City College isn't too bad right now since I've finished my class project. I'm just awaiting the Final Cut Pro fun. *sarcastic yay*.

This song just started. Oh, my god. My boo showed me the new version. I just really got into Macklemore (through mainstream,sadly) and I'm truly ASHAMED of him for selling out. This song is so beautifully written but then he decides to warp his anti-Nike song into pro-Nike just for money. It's sad.

boop

"I lost my head in San Francisco."

"Let me see your face! :c" he messaged me after I left the webcam chat with the camera off. "Why? You don't have to see my face." ... ":c" I face-timed for a few seconds and he was content. "Why did you wanna see my face?" "I just wanted to. Goodnight, baby." My heart never beat so fast like that. That moment crushed me. It's going to be like this for nearly four years and a Summer due to his 99% chance of getting into iGem. God. What am I doing to do with myself?

Anyways, iGem is a big deal for him so I have to deal with seeing him over webcam all Summer. I just want the best for my bestfriend. Aha. "I wanna come over." "Aha why?" "I just want to spend some alone time with you." Goddamnit. I can't stand how overly upset I'm getting about him. I was never like this with anybody else. This feeling sucks. Aha.