158 ; [Quote]

A conversation with Joannie:
r= Joannie | t= Jazmine

[20:53] r: i might play gunbound
[20:53] r: after i download
[20:53] r: some music
[20:53] r: >:B
[20:53] r: SDKLFNSKLDFN
[20:53] r: I LOVE THE TURTLE
[20:53] r: D:
[20:53] t: lol! I use the elephant
[20:53] t: or
[20:53] t: uhh
[20:54] t: the weird scorpion thing
[20:54] r: u mean mammonth
[20:54] r: thingie
[20:54] r: o-o
[20:54] t: OH WHATEVER
[20:54] r: LOL
[20:54] t: LOL
[20:54] r: XDDDD
[20:54] t: it has a trunk
[20:54] t: XD
[20:54] t: so
[20:54] t: ya
[20:54] r: O:<
[20:54] r: SO DOES
[20:54] r: A MAMMONTH
[20:54] r: THING
[20:54] r: W.E U CALL IT !
[20:54] t: and ant eaters
[20:54] t: but yeah
[20:54] t: they aren't elephants
[20:54] t: DX
[20:54] t: well, mammoths are now elephants
[20:54] t: in this time period
[20:54] r: D:
[20:54] t: so
[20:54] t: we'll call it an elephant
[20:54] r: NOT EVEN !
[20:54] r: O:<
[20:55] t: YES EVEN
[20:55] r: DS:KFNSLDKFNDSF
[20:55] t: LOL.
[20:55] r: THEY AREN'T HAIRY
[20:55] r: THERES A BIG DIFFERENCE
[20:55] t: yeah huh!
[20:55] t: if you look closely at the head
[20:55] r: i wonder if their hair feels like pubes
[20:55] r: o-o
[20:55] t: they have little hairs
[20:55] t: o_o
[20:55] t: ...
[20:55] r: LOLOLOL
[20:55] t: WOW JOANNIE
[20:55] t: lol
[20:55] r: WUHT D: !
[20:55] t: You would wonder that XD
[20:55] t: aha
[20:56] r: XDD
[20:57] r: buht
[20:57] r: i rlly wonder tho
[20:57] r: D:
[20:58] t: aha
[20:58] t: sixflags
[20:58] t: lets you rid elephants
[20:58] t: :O
[20:58] t: you should try!
[20:59] t: i was too short to reach
[20:59] t: the hair on the head
[20:59] t: XD
[20:59] r: D:
[20:59] r: OMGGG
[20:59] r: i meant
[20:59] r: like
[20:59] r: i wanna
[20:59] r: feel a mammoths
[20:59] r: hair
[20:59] r: o-o
[20:59] r: elephants
[20:59] r: dont got none
[20:59] r: >:o
[21:01] r: blarg
[21:02] t: o___o:
[21:02] t: elephants have HAIR
[21:02] t: on its HEAD
[21:02] t: lol
[21:04] r: YEAH
[21:04] r: BUT MAMMOTHS
[21:04] r: HAVE HAIR
[21:04] r: EVERYYYYWHERRRRREEEE
[21:04] ra: THE TITS
[21:04] r: THE BALLZ
[21:04] r: THE EGGROLL
[21:04] r: EVERYWHERE
[21:04] r: EVEN THE ASS CRACK !
[21:06] t: LOLOLOL.

157 ; [Monkeys of The Arctic]

Arctic Monkeys - The Jeweller's Hands

I fell for this song once #bitchville had posted it on their Tumblr. I'm now in love with the band.

So, since I have no life, I found this on YouTube.

I love Aldrine's voice and the fact that he likes KH like me. I must buy Kingdom Hearts: Birth by Sleep soon.
Well, this was the one that I heard first since it was the OP for KHI.

156 ; [Another Thing]

One simple thing:

You all say that life sucks and that you have no reason to live.

All you do is stand there and cry about how bad it's gotten. "I wanna die, I wanna die."

You're all talk, no action. You have a life and you're wasting it on made up shit that isn't true.

Simple as that. Change your motherfucking attitude.

You say nobody cares, there's always at least one that does care about you.

When that person steps up to you and says that they do care, you ignore it.

You write about how life sucks and why you deserve to die.

If you lost someone dear to you, you're still alive. YOU'RE STILL GODDAMN ALIVE. Do what they wanted to do: LIVE YOUR LIFE WHILE YOU STILL HAVE IT.

You say I don't understand, you say the the world is against you.

It's all your imagination.

You're lying to yourself.

You're the one who doesn't care about yourself.

Life is short,

so stop wasting your time.

Yeah, yeah. I bet you're all like, "Jazmine, you're such a fucking hypocrite!". Uh, I don't go around saying how I don't deserve to live or say I how I wanna go commit suicide. People who say that make me want to go ape-shit on them and beat the crap out of them since they don't appreciate what they got. Those people that I was referring to are stupid. So goddamn stupid. They were given a life, and they're out there wasting it on NOTHING. You got NOTHING if you don't make something out of it.

Au revoir.

155 ; [Please Get The Fuck Out, Little Bitch]

Honestly, I wish Kimberly N. would get out of my life and stop interfering with everything in it.

Yes, I'm gonna be a shit talker right now and talk about her on my own blog. This is NOT cyber bullying, I swear. This is like, me explaining how I'm BEING bullied. Goddamn.

Okay, Kimberly N. This girl, I grew up with her for years and I was cool with her. But to be honest, as we grew up, I acted really mean to her as a kid to "fit in" with my other group of friends, which I realized was very wrong. This is the reason why I started changing and being a bit nicer lately. Honestly, I don't think she got over it, but moving on.

Ever since I got a boyfriend, Derrick, she's been talking A LOT of shit about me. I remember when I first started going out with him, she said things like, "Oh, Jazmine was such a bitch when we were kids." Blah, blah. Why would you say that? To make him think twice about me? I let that slide though.

For strike one, I just recently had a fight with my ex BFF, Cary and I was completely crushed by it and was in a fragile state of depression. I mean, come on, he was my BEST FRIEND and I lost someone I loved to talk to and be with. Well, one time my boyfriend and I invited Kimberly to eat lunch with us and as we walked back to school after eating, she either picked up a call from Cary or faked a call with him and emphasized that she was talking specifically to him. Right after, she asked, "WHAT'S WRONG JAZMINE? WHAT ARE YOU HIDING? JUST TELL US." That moment, my heart dropped and I felt like throwing myself in a ditch and crying my heart out, but I didn't because I didn't want Derrick to worry. I kept it to myself.

Strike two, I wore a Beatles shirt to school. Kim was wearing one too. She ignored me for, what, a week just because of the shirt. Then she told me I was a biter via text that same week. I was basically FORCED to make up with her because of Lincoln's Brother Sister Assembly and I was helping the Polynesian club teach for girls along with two others. I thought it was a dumbshit thing to be upset about and wanted to pull the plug on our friendship, but I had to do what I had to do.

Strike three, on a Friday, I get a text from my boyfriend asking, "What the fuck is going on?!" and he tells me that Kimberly told him that I was flirting with three guys: Barrett, Reggie, and Christopher. How odd is it that two of them she had a crush on AND they were my friends as well. Of course, I was heartbroken that Derrick didn't trust me and it had been almost five months since we started dating. I texted Kim and told her to drop dead then she responds with, "Oh, Cary is right, you HAVE changed." and I'm wondering what the hell does that have to do with anything and that she shouldn't compare my friendship with Cary and hers. It's goddamn different. Oh, and guess what? Right after I decided that I was done putting up with Kimberly's lies and bullshit, she tells Derrick that she was lying about the whole thing just because she was upset about her OWN life. Derrick and I almost broke up and now some things aren't even the same between us anymore.

I was fucking done with that girl.

When school started, she decided to do more to ruin me. I'm trying my best to ignore it, but she just want's my fucking attention.

1. She ranted to Derrick about me over text. (Hello, are you stupid?! He's my boyfriend, we trust each other and tell each other everything.)
2. She complained that I was in her gym period at the beginning of the year. (I'm in another class but in the same period! GODDAMN.)
3. She talks so fucking loud that I can hear her all the way across the gym TALKING.
4. She complained to my boyfriend about if I was going to treat her equally in Polynesian club since I'm VP and teaching this year. (I promised Posada that I was going to teach. I'm going to fucking teach, so she needs to chill out, stop talking about me, and let me do what I need to do.)
5. She tells everyone I told her to die. (LOL. I dared her to do that. Seriously. Who's the better person now, beyotch?)
6. She tells hella people that I FORCED my boyfriend to join Polynesian Club. (He's doing it because I asked him to. I even told him to leave if he didn't wanna do it, but he said he's doing it for me and because he knows it'll make me happy.)

OH, and she told my boyfriend once that she wanted to make up with me. Her reason? Because she didn't want to be hated by someone. How selfish of you. Last year you said you didn't like Kristi and now you're acting like you love the hell out of her.

I tried being nice, Kimberly. Now, just leave me the fuck alone and stop being so obsessed about me. I know you just want me to love you like everyone else. Fuck off.

P.S. When you told Derrick and I that you were on pills and trying to O.D., I thought it was a fucking lie. You have a good life, and you're just lying to get attention. Same thing with the transferring to Balboa; I just thought you said that to get attention and see how many people would care if you left or not.

Okay, I'm done.

Au revoir.

I'm doing Physics homework with my little panda bear plushie that Derrick got me from his trip to D.C. I love it.

154 ; [Myanus]

I made a Sailor Scout the other day.

Her name is Sailor Myanus.

She likes cake

and cheese.


I'll post the drawing when I feel like it since I feel very pregnant and fat. Oh, mother nature, you're such a pain in the ass sometimes.

Did you know that when you're on your period you feel constipated 24/7? Maybe it's just me.

Fart. Au revoir.

Untrust Us - Crystal Castles

I honestly thought I could quit CC; boy was I wrong.

153 ; [Staggering]

So, yesterday, I experienced something terrible:
My chest tight, my ears felt like they were going to burst, my throat dry and thick, hard coughing and muscles tightened. I couldn't breath.

Yeah, I have an inhaler and I did use it before exercising as directed. No, I have not been diagnosed with asthma. Yes, I have experienced this before once when I was a child, about seven or eight-

It was about three PM when I got home with my sister and dad from school. I was tired for some reason that day and just passed out at the dinning room table. Nobody was in the same room as me, and I felt too lightheaded and ached too much to move or call for someone. Dinner came around and I was still laying there, breathing heavy and loud. Everyone came out to eat, while my mom set down her bag on a chair and asked, "What's wrong with you? FELIX, what's the matter with Jazmine?!" Of course, my dad just said, "Oh, she's fine."

I only responded with tears dripping down my from eyes and my mom just picked me up and took me to the car.

It was about seven PM that moment and I was laying on a table in the hospital. A doctor placed a mask over my mouth and nose and gave me some pink medicine. I couldn't handle it and just coughed it back up and let it sit in the mask while trying to breath.

It's weird, they didn't know what was wrong with me.


Well, basically the same thing happened during gym yesterday. After getting changed, I headed over to my locker, which I share this year with my love. Right was I approached him, I felt like throwing myself on the ground but instead, flung myself onto him. I told him I couldn't breath, so he opened my bag frantically and opened the paper box to my inhaler. I took a puff and nothing really happened, but I refused to worry him any longer and tried to keep my breathing to a lower volume.

Today, while on the bus back to school, I had fallen asleep on his shoulder. I had awoken much too early and got a headache as I got off the bus. There it was, the breathing problems came back as well and I wanted to walk him home. Of course, I was being stubborn and refused to be picked up without walking him. Aha. He got mad at me and scolded me for not knowing my limits; pushing myself too hard.

It's always like this, I won't tell him if I'm sad, not tell him what's wrong, do something reckless like running across the street without him, not staying home when I'm sick and resting, not bringing my inhaler for running, wanting to do sports when I can't. I really love his "motherly" role in my life.

Another thing, I have a load of Fiji Film and I need models to use them on.
Just saying.

TOMORROW IS CLUB REGISTRATION DAY DURING LUNCH ON THE COURTYARD! *YOU SHALL ALL BE NEW DANCERS FOR POLYNESIAN CLUB BECAUSE YOU LOVE ME AND I'M SUPER CONCEITED! (This is my job as VP. HAHAHA.)

Au revoir!

152 ; [Expressions]

My friend Kyle N. IMed me at 4:55 pm today saying, "Elaine and I broke up again today."

Honestly after three times, or even times he never told me, this was my response:



But at least my response made his day.

Sorry, bootybutt face.