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I fear the day I'll be separated from my bestfriend. My lover, my half, my trust. It sucks when you're literally waiting for the day where it'll be hard without them around all the time like you're use to. I become too attached when it comes to love. I don't like talking about college because that's the big event. That's the moment. There's a 1/10 chance that we'll be together for that time period. I want the best for my bestfriend. He wants to become a molecular biologist while I want to be a video editor or graphic designer. They're so different and far apart. I'm being really fucking sappy right now but that's just it. I can't help it. Not everybody understands me. It's almost like torture; our grip is at our very finger tips and once we step on that stage, it'll be likely we'd only see each other once every few months. I fear.. What if he falls in love with someone who has more interest in what he likes? Like cars, biotechnology, and music? What if he falls out of love with me? I'm so attached to him I don't think I could ever fall out of love with him..but I fear the day when he'll forget about me. I believe him and trust him but no matter what-- because of my past experiences with "love".. I can't stop this fear.