117 ; [WHY?]

For some reason this song reminds me of Derrick. Hella old song but I just had to think about it.
My First Kiss - 3OH!3


What a pervert. *love*

Oh, and I did a speedpaint for my little sister. (Horray for 400+ subscribers..again. I gotta stop making new accounts. >_>)

116 ; [Tae Yang(Yung?)]

Whatever? Aha. Tae Yang's first album, SOLAR (Deluxe Edition), is being released tomorrow. I personally don't think any of the songs will top Wedding Dress or WHERE U AT. Aha. Anyway go check it out?

115 ; [You Don't Know What You Do To Me]

Beating Heart Baby-Head Automatica
It's freakin' stuck in my head now and I can't stop singing/replaying it. Damn YouTube PV artists.


Blade_C_Kun Gaia Commission
Goddamnit! I've been procrastinating so much.

114 ; [Thank You]

When your name is mentioned from somebody that doesn't even LIVE in San Francisco and it has to do with me changing, I just want to jump off a cliff.

And for that, I wish you a Happy Early Birthday.
July 1st.

Sorry if it seems like I lied about things I've said.
And I especially want to apologize for changing.
Hope you never change like me.

I'm such a loser, right? You hate me, right? -so excited-

All your thinking is that I'm retarded and this is a waste of my time.
Well if I ever wanted to apologize to your face, all you'd do is ignore me, walk away and think of how much of a loser I am. PLUS apologies won't work for someone like you.

So please, enjoy your birthday and continue with your bullshit. I'd love to hear from more people about this. And yes, a lot of them come back to me with this.
Love, Jazmine Zabala (A.K.A Jay-Z)

P.S.
And I didn't change for my boyfriend, I changed FOR MYSELF and I'm not letting you get in the way of what I want. Thanks. ;D

And I won't even sink to your level; all of this is bullshit and unwanted drama that's just getting in the way of my life.

P.S.S.
I like cheese. OHOHOHO

113 ; [Rant-like. Yum.]

Don't you just hate those people who never ask for the second story?

Yeah, with blazing fury. I just wanna fuck their brains out with a dildo.

Thanks for asking.

MGMT - Kids


So I ended up going back to my old Blackberry. The stupid contacts were still the same as they were when they changed it. Disgusting. I just wanted to throw the phone out of the window when I saw that, but I had no other choice since my current phone keeps shutting down on me for no reason.

Here's an emo-ish post:
Saying those things,
ruining relationships
with another being
only to give yourself another
reason to just
end it all.

It's true love.

Now I shall waste my life on Scarlet Weather Rhapsody. TYVM.

112 ; [FINALLY]

I finally made a full-length speedpaint with no stops. I'm so proud of myself. Too bad the drawing came out fucking ugly.*rage face*

111 ; [Fucking K-Pop]

Turn It Up Loud(DJ Amaya remix) - T.O.P
I have too much party music on my iTunes now. Fuck.


Big Bang members are an exception.

110 ; [Ahurr]

This is stupid.

I can't believe people even use our
broken friendship as an excuse
to call both of us bad people.

What dumbshits.

109 ; [Yummy Futon]

I realized that I'm so excited to get a futon that I won't get unless I finish cleaning my room. My mom says she'll get me a new T.V and give me her 360. MORE HALO. I actually wanna try Modern Warfare..I think I'll get sucked in and get super excited and end up screaming every kill. I'll be playing Rock Band all the time too. Aha

"Thanks to you I threw up
and I shit all over the fucking place."
Duck Face - GAMBLE


writing later.

108 ; [Today Was Love]

Sometimes a week can feel like a few years when you're away from that one person you care about.

First of all, I plan to learn this song; simply adorable.
Space Suits-Aldrine Guerrero (written with Aiko Yamashiro)


Today the day was spent in the park with tight embraces, leaving me feeling safe and warm within arms.

Sharing ice cream with a side of laughter.

Warm sand between our toes with the cold breeze of San Fran causing us to shiver.
The only thing we do together is laugh and smile.

Living the moment.

I love it.

107 ; [I Just Remembered]

As I was putting on my bikini for today's trip to the beach, (Yes, I know that was a bit too much information.) I remembered a time where my cousins took me to Great America. When we were there, I was only, what, 7? We walked around with only our shorts and bikini tops on. There was this girl who told us to put a shirt on and my cousins were like: "You're just jealous." REALLY loud and we kept walking. Hohoho. I love my family. c:


Another note? What the fuck? :C The clouds are going to the direction of SF. It's usually like that; the sky is all blue and clear over where I live and when we go towards wherever I'm going out with my friends or something, it's cloudy and ugly looking. Oh, well. I'll attempt something today anyway.

106 ; [It's Japanese, Hun]

Jeux Interdits(C77)[同人音楽]-IOSYS
Originally, I put this in a speedpaint done for my friend, but stupid YouTube refuses to cooperate with my videos lately. I'm getting goddamn complaints that I haven't been keeping my promise of uploading now. Well, it isn't my fault. ; n ;


I don't have much to write lately; cleaning is the only thing that's keeping my Summer from becoming a vortex of boredom and brainwash.

I'll attempt to write later.

105 ; [A Song]

I Never Told You - Colbie Caillat
Damnit! I blame Jolie's super awesome Gaia profile music..Well, I've heard it on VH1 a few times but I ignored it since it wasn't really my type of music, then I listened to Jolie's music over and over again. Horray.



it's that feeling.

104 ; [Penis Pasta]

San Francisco - Fisherman's Warf(Gift shops)
My dad, sister, and I played as tourists today at Fisherman's Warf. It was delightful.







MY FAVORITE! I WANTED TO BUY THEM!

103; [Too Much Time]

Thats it for now.

102 ; [Meet Ricardo]

Goddamn Calvin and Wilson got be back on Gaia. Well, I'm only doing it because I'm bored and lazy. Horray. It'll get boring soon so I won't worry about it.

GaiaOnline Profile:Ricardo Omega

It was originally Mr Jazmine, but I got tired of my own name. Meet Ricardo Omega, hoes.

101; [Best Day ,Worst Night]

I accidently fell asleep on the most UNCOMFORTABLE couch in the house last night. My legs are all messed up now: tightened, numbed, and weak. I've had a huge spider bite on my leg which was purple for a whole week. I'm so glad that Summer was able to help cover it up by allowing me to stay home whenever I wanted. (I also refused to wear my skinny jeans on such hot days.) Well, my mom wants me to get it checked to make sure it isn't infected or anything.

Well, I went out with my love on Saturday. We met up at a Borders store and I scared the crap out of him. I'm a good girlfriend. Afterward, we waited for the bus that took us closer to GG Park. I simply refuse to wear shortshorts anymore. Stupid pedophiles keep staring, honking, and trying to talk to me from their cars. OH, so my love and I went to GG park and walked around for awhile. It was simply..romantic? aha. I loved being with him though.


Afterward, we went back to the mall and strolled around for a little bit. When we were on the bus, this lady was trying to get to the back door of the bus and she said to me and my love, "Excuse me, ladies." I was clinging to a pole on the bus and laughing so hard. His response was, "OH, I SEE HOW IT IS."
Saturday was a good day.

Today, my uncle, cousin, sister, mom, and I went to see Karate Kid. I still don't get how it's Karate Kid when Jackie Chan teaches Kung Fu to the main character. I just kept thinking throughout the movie, "Oh, my fucking god." Well, it was good. I won't do a review because I'm lazy as shit.

I went on a shopping spree. I can't believe I actually bought a denim romper. It's comfy though.. I'll wear it to Orlando this year then.

I'm cold.

Au revoir.

100 ; [RJ Berger]

So, I was up late because I couldn't find a comfortable spot in the livingroom to sleep. Every time I found a new place, I spent at least another hour staying up, so I ended up watching The Hard Times Of RJ Berger on MTV at 12am. It was wonderful? I just watched the first episode since it's so brand-new. He's laying in his bed masturbating to a girl on a dragon. OH, YEAH! Well, I didn't understand the storyline for awhile until a few odd things happened. Apparently it's a story about a geek who has a huge dick. I was like, "Wow, I need to watch the next episode." LMFAO. No kidding.

I actually woke up before eleven today. I'm so proud of myself! Woop.

Well, I'm off to do more cleaning in my/sister's room. Once we finish, My parents need to pack up shit in the other two rooms then we could switch beds around I'll finally get my own room. I need freakin' privacy, man! (For stuff, y'know? -wink wink-)

Au revoir.

99 ; [So I Sit And Write]

I sit and finally realize that my legs are numbed out. Whenever I get that feeling, I'm scared that I'm about to get a cramp and it'll hurt like a bitch. (And I've always wondered what a bitch hurt like.) Well, I'm debated whether I should eat something or not instead of watching a giant gelatin monster dance around on Phineus & Ferb.

Accomplished today?
-Get rid of shit in my/sister's room
-Plan a date with my love.
-Give little brother a middle name. Jorge.
-Talk to my daughter, Meredith.


Au revoir.

98 ; [My Babies]

I can't think of anything to write now..


Black Eposh Electic; If you look close you can see the broken string. :C


"My Second Boyfriend" - Leolani Ukulele


I'm too lazy to look at the companies..


I'll write if I'm still up later. C:

97 ; [I'm BEYOND Bored]

Chiddy Bang - Opposite Of Adults
I'm really bored and this was all I could think of.


I'll write later. I've got nothing better to do. Aha.

96 ; [A Work of Art]

Aiya. South Park has been so popular on dA drawn Japanese-styled. It isn't a bad thing though? Aha.

Look at my totally awesome rainbow socks, bitches.

I realized after cleaning my room that I have A LOT of art supplies. I even have Sakura Pigma markers, which are the ones I've always dreamed of buying because they are super expensive, but it turns out I had them and lost them. I'm amazing, I know. Well, I finally started cleaning up my/sister's room because I want my own. Yeah, right when my mom said that if I cleaned up our shit, she'd move the rooms around. She isn't buying me a bed though; a futon was given to us by one of my uncles and the mattress is memory foam, so I'll be pretty happy with it. I already have at least six bags of trash and shit. My family just loves keeping old things, which I could tell by the 60% of cleaned up were my baby books and toys.

I finally got my book for Summer reading but I only got My Antonia by Willa Cather. I'll be sure to get the other later; I can read pretty fast anyway and get the assignment done well-- decent. I just don't want to do two essays since I'm pretty lazy.

Friday I went to see Shrek: The Final Chapter in 3D with Derrick. The lady selling the tickets gave me a pair of 3D glasses that was impossible to put on ANY human being, but I attempted to wear them during the movie anyway. Afterward, Derrick and I popped his glasses and I popped my lens out when I got home. I put it on this bear that he gave me for Valentines day; it's adorable!

Today, I went to see Get Him to The Greek today with my uncle, cousin, and sister. My mom split off from us and watched Killers. When we got into the theater, the four of us were the only ones in there, so my cousin and I decided to run laps and sit in every single seat in the room. I was pooped out afterward; I need to work out more this Summer. I swear, I'm getting fat. My uncle was acting dorky too. He stuck a Peanut M&M in his nose and then ate it. Get Him to The Greek was funny-ish. It wasn't exactly as funny as I thought it would be; it was just full of sexual jokes. You could only hear my uncle and I laughing within that theater. (Probably the person I get my twisted mind from. Aha.)

I'm running out of things to write about. Summer can get really boring.

I need to get a job, do some sports, finish homework, and get my mom to get my freaking longboard. A new skateboard at least. The cousin that she gave my old one away to doesn't even use it! Apparently it's sitting in their basement gathering dust. It's sad. My sister needs to move her two old acoustic guitars out of the room; I can't even get out without hitting one by mistake with the door. My black electric Eposh is gathering dust too, well it'd be because I barely know how to play guitar. I know how to play ukulele, but I fail at guitar. My amp is dead! It drowned in bunnies over the years. If my cousin saw how badly I treated my guitar, she'd probably murder me and fix it herself. I plan on getting it fixed this Summer and actually LEARNING how to play it. I've been a little more active on DeviantArt and starting to learn more songs on my ukulele. (A.K.A my other boyfriend)

Well, I'll be sure to keep my blog updated every few days or so. I'll try my best to keep it to every single day since I'll be bored almost every single day.

I'm glad that Joannie and I started talking to each other again. I really like Joannie; she's always there for me and I really feel like I should do better as a friend and be there more for her. She's also a good and caring friend and somebody I can trust with a lot of things. I'm just sort of upset that I couldn't formally make up with her before Summer started and for that I'm sorry. Thank you for being there for me, Joannie. No matter what, you still stayed by me even if I changed by a lot this year.

Aha. I hate looking back at the past, but I realized that I did a lot of stupid things to lose friends. Well, I can't really fix them anymore because of how stubborn I could be and how I hold a lot of grudges, but I wish I could go back in time and fix it all. I truly do miss those friends, but it happens I guess. I know I could act like a jerk, bitch, or selfish bastard, but I'm blinded by other things. I can't control myself sometimes. People can tell me that I can control that shit, but really, I can't no matter how many times you say it in your mind or to my face. But now, I'm moving on. I'm trying hard to change that all, but at the same time, I'm focusing on what's important: grades, family, my future. This is now and that was then. I'm stepping up and turning a leaf. I'm becoming a new person whether they like or not. Years will past and some won't realize it, but they'll change too.

This isn't bullshit, it's the truth. It's life.

“Stop living a life like a trapped or caged animal. don’t just stand around surrounded by many people. but reach your hand out and reach for the sky. be in a place where people aren’t. keep looking up. even if you can’t grasp anything.(:” -Joannie Nguyen

Au Revoir.

I got news

❝If you're reading this...

Congratulations, you're alive.

If that's not something to smile about,

Then I don't know what is. ❞

95 ; [Motels]

Build God, Then We'll Talk - Panic! at the Disco
..So shed off the sheets and before all the stains and a few more of your least favorite things. OMFG. LOL. I'll love this music video(hella old though..) forever!; PORNO MIME! I remember Kyle showing this to me a long time ago.


Horray. No more school.

au revoir.

94 ; [Come Out Mr.Sun]

Horchata - Vampire Weekend
I just now realized that Vampire Weekend was put in one of the Twilight movies. I can't believe that they would even dare put such an AMAZING band into their album. It's probably because of their band name. Disgusting. I also learned what horchata was.
This summer I plan on saving up for a pair of Dr. Marten's 1460 originals. It's about $125, but I think I'll be able to save up if I don't eat for a few months or so. Aha. It's nice how the worn Dr.Marten's are designer and cost about five dollars more. I love that.

Just one more day of this nightmare of a year. Like I said, this wasn't exactly my school year. Probably the worst when it came to friendship EVER. I literally have only a few people who I can actually trust and turn to. I'm even resorting to my family; oh, god. As soon as Summer starts, I plan on buying my books for my Summer english homework, drawing more, reviewing shit from the year, and going out doing things I'm not suppose to.

Surprisingly, I was able to present my French essay from memorization without any problems; "it was very smooth with very few mistakes" said my teacher. I noticed he laughed when I said I didn't like chocolate syrup on my pancakes..What's so funny about that?! Well, I'm going to focus on my last final for the year. Sadly, I have to stay until twelve tomorrow because of my stupid 7th period. We did our finals last week but our teacher is making us come. Horray..

My "little brother" owes me brownies with cream cheese. Better give them to me over the summer, Adrian. I must taste this weird thingymajigger you've created!

Alright then. I'm off to pee, review, and draw.

Thanks.

Au revoir.

93; [The Second Day]

The second day of finals were today but lucky for me, I had AVID and art today, which meant that I didn't really need to do anything. The only thing I DID do was do a reflection of my year, lift boxes around, and start a new yarn bowl. I forgot my sixth period finals project at home, which upset me a lot because I brought it every day I didn't need it and forgot it on the due date. FUCKKINGIRONICBULLSHIT.

Everybody ate my red bean taiyaki..

It's alright. I made chocolate ones today, which came out WAY better than the red bean batch.

After school, Derrick and I went down to eat pho. I got so full and for once I beat his fatass (just kidding?) finishing first. Afterward, we went to Quickly and then laid down in the park together. We laid listening to Billionaire on repeat. He kept trying to make me sing, which I still refuse to do. Thank you very much.

English and French finals tomorrow. Horray.
Oh, right. It's June.

Nothing more.

Au revoir.